Weee~

Okay okay , people. I'm back yeah. Gosh, its been really hectic these days. What with the chinese elocution , pandu stuffs , and some relationship problems to take care of. Sigh . Lately, i've been thinking a lot. Seriously, it seems like everything i do is a matter between life or death. And I am so damn FREAKING tired of this. And really, i've noticed that one of my best friend is making the biggest mistake of her life. Literally. Not just one . It seems as if she's lost her common sense, so she's doing stupid things all the time. If she weren't my best friend, i would have killed her. =.=

Its not that i'm jealous that you got into a relationship again. Really . I mean , i wouldn't want to go into a relationship. But , honestly , you really should think again. If that's what you really want , i won't say anything about it. But the problem is you don't even have any feelings for xxx! You know, it would make people think that you're just playing his feelings . Not that i think like that. Don't get the wrong idea , but i don't want you to repeat the mistake i made. I thought i love him too, but it wasn't like what i thought. Anyway, that has pass, and i ... I don't know what to say. Scissors boy has the same opinion as me. So... break a leg. =.=

I like the way you sound in the morning

we're on the phone without a warning

I realized your laugh is the best sound i have ever heard.

I like the way i can't keep my focus

I watch you talk but you didn't notice

I hear the words but all i can think is we should be together.

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I wanna fall in love with you again.

I won't deny the fact that I cried. Because you really mean a lot to me, but no matter what , you've left a scar right in the middle of my heart . Sorry can't cure it , because , the damage is done .

What A Day.

Geez guys. Something went very wrong today. I'm really pissed off at everything . To start , my shoes. The whole freaking day my shoes was wet , and i was like , trying to chill. But in the end, some idiots who actually "STIMULATED" my anger, got the best of me.

To her , so what? You're not trying to hide ? Find someone ? Please , why don't you just tell me that you're gonna talk to that person ? I don't care, and i'm sorry if I was pulling you away , cuz.. well , cuz i thought maybe you would want to avoid some stuffs. Well , i guess i don't know you so well like i thought . You might as well spill it all out and get it over, done with. Because, hey.. Its not like i'll die. I could have saved myself from all the trouble from racking my brain to think of the best way or solution. But if you don't want , that's totally fine with me, i'm totally absolutely fine with it. You can go and be with him for all I care. You know? Pfft. But instead what did you do? You ran over , and i was shouting to you like someone who lost her mind to come back. You know , you could at least tell me so I won't make a fool out of myself. Like i said, its your life. You can honestly do whatever you want , and i won't stop you. Cuz you know what? Now i know that perhaps i wasn't always first . Which proved it today. During this incident. DO you know, how much pain it was? Did you know, i had to keep my jaws together to prevent myself from crying? DID you know , that i had to bear that unworthy person's glare? If i did not bear it, i would have dug out his eyes. DID YOU EVEN KNOW THIS? you don't , do you? Does the word sister even mean anything to you? No, scratch that, I should say, FRIEND. Does it? I can just say , i'm totally disappointed in your behaviour today. You still ask me to not get so worked up? Try having this, and let's see who's patience is better.

To another one, i don't have the right to say anything, i know. I totally get it, and i won't say anything sensitive. But i'll just say this, if you think that the other group is better, go on. I don't mind. I don't want you to think us as your burden. I didn't even know you had a blog, you never even told me. And you thank some people whom you barely know, whereas you've know us for at least 1 year, and you didn't even mention us. Fine , i admit, we're not as cool as them, we're those goody goody who only study and talk about books, yeah, at least its better than wasting time on things that can't help you at all. You know what? I really hope that you could at least tell me or us, about whatever you haven't told us. Or you can choose to keep a secret forever, but nothing on earth stays a secret forever.

When I needed you most when I needed a friend, you let me down now

Friendship is delicate as a glass, once broken it can be fixed but there will always be cracks

Sunday School

Okay okay, perhaps there will be something interesting for this post. Cuz i just came back from church , and during sunday school , a couple of hilarious incidents happened. Okay , today's topic was about DREAMS AND DECISIONS and HAPPINESS.

Life can be exciting. Sometimes it seems as if we are changing and growing not only from day to day but also from seconds to seconds. Our dreams for the future may change just as fast. Whether we realize it or not , we are making many decisions about our lives each day, These choices can spell the difference between success and failure in life, right? I , for one , when i was a little girl , i used to dream that i could be one of the princess in those fairy tales , i bet all girls have thought about being princess right? And your prince charming would come and take you by the hand and lead you dancing in the woods. *gazes off dreamily... and snaps back to life.* Okay! FOCUS. erm.. where were we? Oh right, princesses. Well , here 's the real world isn't it? There aren't anything like these , the categories should give us the idea right? FAIRY TALES, and fairy tales DO NOT exist. Teacher Anne told us she used to wish she could own a chocolate factory when she was a little girl too. Yeah , i did have that dream too , that is , after watching Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. haha. (;

Okay , moving on to the topic of HAPPINESS , the teacher assigned us to write out 3 things that make us happy , wanna know mine? Travelling , reading and spending time with my love ones . One of the boys in my class said , he wished he could have an interview with the Holland striker (he mentioned the name , but i didn't catch what he said ). Another guy who was kind plump said , eating makes him happy. haha , he lives to eat . That's really one of the best. haha. Now , explain your understanding of happiness. Are you thinking?? It really is hard isn't it? So when teacher asked me , i just shrugged. Because i 'm not sure what would be the best answer. The teacher moved on and asked everyone what is their understanding of happiness , one answered be happy with your life and just live life to the fullest . Now , teacher told us her definition of happiness . Its being in the right relationship with Jesus and doing what God wants us to do. Perhaps i'm not mature enough , but i don't understand this statement. Oh well , i suppose i'll understand it sooner or later.

Anyway , the whole afternoon i was having guitar class , and whoaa. the tips of my finger is numb now. Honestly, i do envy those people who could play the guitar and they're totally indulged in the music , so.. in order to reach my goal , i have to keep holding on. *play avril lavigne's KEEP HOLDING ON * LOL. haha. anyway, that's all folks. (; love youu people. CHEERS! ♥

Speechless over the edge and just Breathless

hey people, I know i know. Please forgive me if my posts have been absolutely bored and you haven't even got to the second line you're yawning your head off . Well , i sincerely hope that your head hasn't dropped if not that would be like... whoaa. *rolls eyes.* Swtz. Okay okay. Um... so what would you guys like me to talk about? What a stupid question huh?? Well, i'm just gonna... tell you about what happened lately.

Friday

I went to attend the debate competition. Do not get the wrong idea, i'm not competing, i'm just one of the audience. And yeah, although there are quite a few weird parts in the debate, overall.. its actually quite good. They've got the points, and stuffs. But i'm not sure that they have the confidence to present it. Anyway, congrats to the winning group. And i wasn't feeling exactly awesome that day , and one of the pelajar got on my nerves. Geez , i didn't want to be so harsh, but trust me, you got yourself into deep shit. Anyway, who cares about that pelajar. Moving on , when i went to practice my elocution , saw him, and i slipped and bit my own tongue. Gosh. Went to see him during recess. That's about it.

Just went to view sweelynn's blog. Seems like she'd let go too. Yinglee and she had let go. I'm the only one left, i thought very long about it , its not a matter about whether i WANT or not , its a matter about me clinging on to the past , i may be stubborn at times like i said , and sometimes i feel like , i can't let go . But sometimes, i feel like, the time has come, it is indeed time to put him down and move on. But i can't, i honestly can't. If i can't see him one day in school , i don't feel ...right. Waiting for his msgs until my heart aches so much makes me insane. I hope you know what you want , because things are getting out of hand. I'm falling for you all over again. ;(((

Baby tell me you love me. ♥

0701 -Today.

Okay, today nothing interesting happened. Except when i went to school to do the Star Magazine this morning , I think Yinglee either got up on the wrong side of the bed , or she just went mad. haha. You know what guys? OUr magazine wasn't exactly a magazine, it was more like a folio-type magazine. And we were like, "wey , very k yeng lor".... and then, all of us will think, "nevermind, as long as we submit it in, we get pizza voucher. " so all of us were like PIZZA PIZZA PIZZA PIZZA. LOL.

And then, the prefects had to take our lembaga picture, so we queue up according to our heights and got ready. And seriously, i don't know why the hell they need so long to take larh, i'm becoming burnt larh . LOL. SO me and nicol lor were like, hey guys! why are we waiting? Yo, man. I don't fancy the thought of dying so fast larh. So after taking finish.... pretty much nothing happened.

Oh yea, when we went back class and we had KH with 2a12, so i sat with phuiyeng, yinglee sat with soon chern in front.OMG. Something damn funny happened. I don't know how to put it. If you wanna know, ask me directly. I'll tell you.

Yeah, honestly nothing funny happened except that we told each other horror stories which freaked yinglee out so much that she had to shout everytime. =.= Gosh. I nearly burst out laughing la. I'm not trying to be 幸灾乐祸，but seriously, now i know her weakness. Muahaha! LOL.

Okay , erm.. i think that's all. Its just a lame post, cuz i'm feeling bored now. LOL .

Oh darling i wish you were here. ♥

0625 ♥

sweelynn, i love you . Best friends for life. I promise you this. (; ♥

Although its not exactly sweelynn's birthday, but we had a pre-celebration for her at pizza hut. ♥ muaks i love you sweelynn. You know you're very important in my heart.

Okay, so after school, we walked to pizza hut. On the way, we were practically laughing our heads off about things. And then, we ordered and did some things like camwhore and stuffs. Haha. This is the first time i really laughed so much and took so much pics. Thanks to sweelynn.

Sweelynn, there are some things that i would like to tell you. I mean, i don't know how awkward it will be, but i still wanna say. You know, you really are my best friend. You know me like your own hand. You know what i think and you always say it out. Which pisses me off. Sometimes. haha. (; but i honestly love you. Muaks. ♥

You know, i really think that you are someone sent down from God. Or perhaps you are suppose to be my sister that God forgot to give me. Ahh, my long lost sister. (; ILY.