21st of Dec : A letter to OPO ♥

Cute right? Come to think of it, this looks a bit like you. XD well, except for the ribbon.

Dear OPO , just got your message through windows live messenger. I must be looking like an idiot now who keeps smiling. I think i'm gonna have a crack on the side of my mouth XD haha. Anyway, hope you're fine there. The weather's quite cold here, (YA, i know, in MALAYSIA, cold?! *freaky* XP) so i'm wondering whether you're hugging yourself for warmth there. Haha. If not enough, there's actually some here. XD

So anyway i was going to blog about what happened today. Not much actually, just that my friend came over and we did log files together. Haha, yea i'm still doing log files. Swtz right? And yea laughed a lot, i even forgotten bout you for quite a moment. XP just kidding . Just sometimes i need something to take you off my mind. LOL. but overall, i'm fine. It's like living my everyday life.

Then i watched the korean drama. Yea, i nearly died of excitement. haha. Shinwoo is... Haiz. Really good LOL. So that's all , for now. Nothing exciting ever happens here. T.T too bad huh?

Am starting to count down. X) So, hope you're having fun there. ;D miss you.

joan (;

20th of Dec : A letter to OPO ♥

Dear OPO, its been quite a fun day today. I couldn't get use to you NOT texting me in the morning, which i suppose became a habit for me to keep checking my darn phone. And then it strucked me that you were never going to text me. Only then, i tossed my phone somewhere else. Where, i'm not quite sure yet. But, it may probably turn up whenever someone calls. Right now, i'm too lazy to even go find for it.

Hmm starting off with morning, i woke up quite early. Perhaps around 7? Was it? I'm not quite sure. Well, i woke up that early because the youths are coming over to my place to play basketball and swim. I don't suppose you know them, so i'll skip the introductions. Anyway, we played basketball and halfway resting , i couldn't help thinking bout you. And i suppose its because i wasn't doing anything. So i got up, and joined them again. It didn't exactly work, but i suppose better than nothing. Isn't it? Okay, i really had fun today ;D So you don't need to worry. I'm perfectly fine ;)

After that , we went to MAMAK stall to eat. I think my sister suggested that we go the restaurants near our school. =.=" you know what? There's a mamak just along my place and we're going that far . Yea, i suppose she lost it. BIG TIME. TEEHEE XD anyway, we ordered the food and it took more than ... what, 10 minutes? for the guy to get our order right. But, guess what? He still got one wrong. =.=" i ordered my roti canai but it never came. T.T so i was left with ... well. NASI LEMAK. UGH.

So after that, i think all of us ate already so perhaps we become comfortable and all of us got dilemma. Well, maybe some. Because we were deciding to whether swim or NOT swim. Because the pool was dirty, so we went to the other condo there to swim. =.=" And anyway, i swam today. LOL. And while i was in the water, (because there was a case that a kid drowned in the pool)so i was thinking, how come he drowned and loads of other stuff. Which made me thought of you. AGAIN. You don't know how to swim. LOL. But, oh well, nevermind.

So then it rained. And we had to go up. Okay, then we went to my house, had a hot milo and they went. And then something happened (if you wanna know. remind me to tell you bout it) and then i was too tired so i slept. So that's bout it. At night, i'm gonna watch the drama. *screams and faints* ;) haha. I hope you're having fun there, OPO. And i miss you a lot.

I love you , OPO ♥

joan

Speak Now. ♥

*screams and faints* ;)

Ain't she pretty? XD except for her outfit. LOL!

Well, some of you know that my BFF's got me Taylor Swift's album. *jumps up and down, screams and faints* Phew, do not worry. I am fine. Anyway, found this... Prologue, she wrote. Wonderful, absolutely inspiring i see. Boy, is she talented! She sings awesome songs, has awesome voice, writes awesome songs, and is so breathtakingly beautiful. ;D Sigh.

Anyway, will just type it to let you guys read bout it. Really good. I salute her. *SALUTE* TEEHEE!

"Speak now or forever hold your peace," the words said by the preachers at the end of wedding ceremonies all over the world, right before the vows. It's a last chance for protest, and a moment I've always been strangely fascinated by. So many fantasize about bursting into a church, saying what they'd kept inside for years like in the movies. In real life, it rarely happens.

Real life is a funny thing you know. In real life, saying the right thing at the right moment is beyond crucial. So crucial, in fact, the most of us start to hesitate, for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. But lately what I've begun to fear more than that is letting the moment pass without saying anything.

I think most of us fear reaching the end of our life, and looking back regretting the moments we didn't speak up. When we didn't say 'I love you'. When we should've said 'I'm sorry', When we didn't stand up for ourselves or someone who needed help.

These songs are made up of words I didn't say when the moment was right in front of me. These songs are open letters. Each is written with a specific person in mind telling them what i meant to tell them in person. To the beautiful boy whose heart i broke in December. To my first love who i never thought would be my first heartbreak. To my band. To a mean man I used to be afraid of. To someone who made my world very dark for awhile. To a girl who stole something of mine. To someone I forgive for what he said in front of the whole world.

Words can break someone into a million pieces, but they can also put them back together. I hope you use yours for good., because the only words you'll regret more than the ones left unsaid are the ones you use to intentionally hurt someone.

What you say might be too much for some people. Maybe it will come out all wrong and you'll stutter and you'll walk away embarrassed, wincing as you play it all back in your head. But I think the words you stop yourself from saying are the ones that will haunt you the longest.

So say it to them. Or say it to yourself in the mirror. Say it in a letter you'll never send or in a book millions might read someday. I think you deserve to look back on your life without a chorus of resounding voices saying ''I could've, but its too late now. "

There is a time for silence. There is a time for waiting your turn. But if you know how you feel, and you clearly know what you need to say, you'll know it.

I don't think you should wait. I think you should SPEAK NOW.

PS : To all the boys who inspired this album,

you should've known. ;)

love,

Taylor

Taylor Swift's songs are what every girl wants to say.♥

29.11.2010 ♥

This picture means a lot to me. ;)

Okay, so according to the title above, hmm... Its MOI birthday. (; ahaha. Well, in the morning it was kinda busy for me, i went to this singapore girl guides interact event. Hmm, quite interesting, we learnt how to dance indian dance. XD haha. Tres interesting.

Okay, went back home and went to bathe. Blah blah blah. And then, planned to watch "Dear John". But my sis ''prohibited'' me from watching. XD I was real mad that time, but now i know why. XD haaha. Next, went on facebook, syok-ing sendiri halfway. My mom wanted me to take something from her car. GAHH!! =.=" I was so annoyed. Mor eannoyed when my sis took her own sweet time. P/s:i wanted to get back to facebook ASAP! XD

And so, we ended up "visiting" all the floors. =.=" Sicko people right? I know, trust my sis to do that. Hrr. So in the end we reached ground floor. LOL. And when i went out, everyone (melanie, cheeching,phuiyeng,siaosuan,sweelynn,karhoe,yuesum,nicholas and yinglee) jumped out and shouted happy birthday.LOL! I really was stunned. LOL. so anyway, we ended up fooling around. LOL. We played uno only. And just fool around. LOL. =.="

Anyway, really want to thank all o fmy BFFLs again. Honestly, maybe nick, you think its not really good, but i want you guys to know, the hard work you guys put in were all written all over your faces. ;) All over your pretty and handsome faces. XD

Okay, dad's lecturing me to get off the comp already. Once again, thank you my BFFs. Love you guys. ♥

The true battle is in yourself, not with others.

Well peeps. the picture i took above was at the Kelana Jaya Yamaha Music Centre. Yes, you might be wondering what the hell am i doing there huh? Well, i went for a competition. Details, i'm too lazy for that. Have i mentioned that LAZY is my 3rd middle name? ;D i guess not. So now you know. Anyway, results? I didn't get in the final round. But its really okay for me. I probably got ready for that before the competition. Well, i must say i was pretty proud of myself for doing quite a good job, LOL. Because i think i finally conquered my stage fright. Its true, i'm not afraid of doing anything now. Okay, maybe SOME but not the minor ones. But anyway, its an achievement. And it tastes, SU-WEEEET baby! ;D

Anyway, due to the fact that my school is on holiday and i don't need to go to school on thursday, which gave me the PURR-FECT, opportunity, to go back to my primary school. And the school certaintly changed a lot. Tres interesting if i may say. But, anyway, my main goal was to go back to school to .... COLLECT JUNKFOOD! ;D oh c'mon, i'm sure everyone would like some junkfood now and then. Even my mom, who's kind of a health-freak, asks me to pop one into her mouth, but then, she'll give me the *YUCKS* look. OH man, she just wasted one of my favourite CHEEZELS. T.T yup, you bet i am pretty miserable over that. (music please!)*i am in misery,there ain't nobody who can comfort me, oh yeah!* =.=" okay. overdose of junkfoods i guess! Hmm, nothing much , just took some pictures of the small kids performing, they look, slightly like nick, except, he's UGLY but adorable, whereas the kids look, well... just, ADORABLE. ;D

this, well... I don't know what the hell are they doing.

err... fan dance? LOL!

Diabolo! they did a very good job. LOL!

Hip Hop club, BAD ROMANCE. =.= err.... as min yu would say, SO-SO la. XD

The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.

Isn't it beautiful? I wish i was this pretty, LOL.

Phew! Nearly 3 weeks of exams certainly has tired all of us out. All of us look like pandaS when we went to school. AHA! A new name for Sri Sentosa, The School For PandaS! Its not really a bad thing, it means the students study hard until they gave up their beauty, especially the girls! A girl needs her beauty sleep. Ahaha. Nah, just fooling 'round.

Anyway, i felt like blogging 'cuz, i was feeling really bad. Yue Sum told me something and i was really bothered 'bout it. I know i shouldn't be worried bout it. It's the past, c'mon! I know, but i'm really gonna have a nervous breakdown next time. Gosh. I feel like its the end of the world. I hate that person. I really don't know how to face people next year. I have my rights! That bastard!=.=

Gahh.

Like my title, sometimes i thought about forgiving everyone that's offended me. But, sometimes, when you come to think of it, some people call you some really bad words, and say they dont mean it. I mean, how can you call someone a SH and say you dont mean it. That's redonkulous! =.= But maybe i really should learn to let go. Maybe i'll be a happier person this way. Maybe everything will turn out right when you're forgiving, because, maybe you changed your point of view. Sometimes, i find for the real me. Who I really am, but i never found Joan Chia, I don't even know who i am anymore. I just wanna be a normal girl. That's all.

Forgiving is not a gift to someone else - Forgiving is your gift to yourself - a great gift - the gift of happiness.

You Are What You Make Of Yourself.

Life is full of colours. You have your pick of M&Ns. ;D

Actually, I meant to write this for my friend. LOL.

Hey, um... i know lately you are kinda relying on someone. And i really want you to know that he's a good guy. You know who i'm talking about. I know, that's he has touched your wounds inside. I've noticed that whenever you talk about him, you always smile, i'm happy for you. And yeah, i know you don't want anybody to get hurt anymore. You're a kind girl, you'd rather you get hurt yourself and you don't want anybody getting hurt because of you. But that's just it, you can't make it that way. And i can see that you're stuggling. You are touched by him, but you're afraid. I know how you feel. You don't want a relationship, but you want him to stand by your side, be with you through your ups and downs, support you in everything you do, and.... feeling all protective around you. I know, i understand. Okay, maybe not very precise, but... still, we're both girls, we know how a girl feels right? And i know that's what he feels for you. I'm not asking you to accept him, and i know, you wanna focus, i'm just telling you to take it easy. Not easy, i know. LOL. anyway, he might always wait for you, then again, he might not. But, just so you know, i will always love you, even though we've only known each other for like... what? One year? And i really think God forgotten to give you as my sibling, so he sent you as my best friend instead. XD Love ya.

I know,

.

That's my point.

There is no such thing as in recovering fully in love, you might recover, but there will always be a crack.

Lately i haven't been blogging much i know. Well, i've decided to study starting from now. ;D Aww, come on, wipe that face off, i know your eyes must be bulging out of their sockets to know that i've started studying. And so, erm... well, i kind of feel tired of everything lately. Amazing what studying can do huh?

Anyway, i have a question, so i hope some can answer me, but what is trust? Is it something you must have in daily life? I noticed that we've been fighting/argueing a lot. But i feel like you're unhappy with me about some things. I don't know what you want me to do. He is only my best friend, and does that issue bother you so much? Does it matter to you? You just don't get it. Even though you told me that you trust me, i find it hard to believe you. Maybe, i'm over sensitive, but i'm not stupid. I know you, when you're angry, you tend to have this "whatever" attitude. And why is it so hard to trust me?

To be honest, when you said you can't accept that, i was so shocked. You can't imagine how it feels like, its like you were walking along the street minding your own business and suddenly an airplane lands right in front of you. All along you said you were fine and then now you tell me its not fine? Are you trying to kill me? =.=" You guys might be equally important to me, but its not the same. He's like my bro, you... its a whole different case.

When i see you, i'm almost afraid to look at you. I don't dare to look into your eyes, cuz i'm afraid that you might see my weakness. And you can't imagine how fast my heart beats when i see you, sometimes i swear that my heart stopped for that second. You don't know that's how i feel don't you? When i'm near you, i'm afraid to breathe, i'm afraid that you will hear my heart beating. And when i see you, its as if butterflies were flying in my stomach and this knot just can't ever be removed.

That's all I have to say.

Love is metaphysical gravity. ♥

You really have absolutely no idea. :X

Today, i was getting all grumpy and bad tempered because of some minor stuffs. Yeah, i am bad tempered. So anyway, i was going on and on about how other people and their siblings cope with each other and using other people siblings to compare with my sis to my mom. And when i was halfway through a sentence, my mom told me, you know, you don't hate your sister so much, its just that you're being bad-tempered now and really wanna let go. I understand, but you really don't mean it. And even though you are going to fight back and tell me "As a matter of fact, I DO mean it." You really don't mean it. Oh well.

And then i calmed down and thought, my mom's right, I don't mean it. I'm happy with my sister although sometimes we grit our teeth and feel like we wanna rip out each other heads just to get even. But that's the whole point isn't it? Siblings are meant to fight, and later hug each to make it up. Siblings are meant to talk about everything and stay up late just to talk about it. There isn't any way to cut this bond between family.

And i know, often some would say, " OHH! that lucky bitch! How i wish i were her !" well, you really don't wanna be her because she's a bitch as you just said. And comparing your life, your special-in-every-way-life, with someone who, perhaps you barely know, isn't worth it. Because you just DON'T KNOW what that person's been through. For all you know, that person may be a person with leukemia or aids, but they look so healthy. Yeah, when you're them, perhaps you'll think back, maybe being myself is the best. And this is the part, where you moan and groan and throw a humoungous tantrum and everybody you love gets hurt. Whoa, if you did that, congrats, you are so brilliant.

You have to know, if God made us all different, it means we were all meant to do different things. I'm sure this has happened many times, when you hope for this something, you got another thing instead. And later, you were furious and was thinking about flinging yourself off the highest floor. Well, don't even bother to think about it, it doesn't help. NOT that i've tried it before. -,- And next, you were so happy that you got this instead and it was at good purpose. Has that ever happened before? I'm sure it has. So, you see, everything happens for a REASON. Things may not come in the way that you expected it, but in a different way, that perhaps, changed you, or your point of view.

When i was small, i wanted a barbie doll every year for my birthday. Of course, that never happened. But, i got this barbie doll during one of my birthdays. My sister already has one, so i've been "harassing" my mom to get one for me. And she did, so i treasured the barbie doll and took really great care of it. And its still in good shape till now. Yes, i'm still keeping it. Shush. :X And the next year, i HOPED that she would get another one for me. But sadly, i didn't get anything for my birthday, or did i ? I've forgotten. But i remembered, i went to New Zealand and met my aunt's friends there, one of them gave me a book, and i still have it till now. It was this, TOY STORY BOOK, that led me to my current favourite activity, i suppose you should know. Reading.

Weird isn't it, how things work? It's fascinating to me. Absolutely mind-boggling. Explosive mind-booming. PHEW. I started to accept things they are now, like, i was trying to feed a bird that came into my garden but when i was reaching it, it flew away. =.=" i reckon it thinks i'm gonna catch it and torture it. I don't blame it. This means the bird is really smart to know what humans are thinking, NOT that i'm thinking about it. So anyway, this is what i have to say only. Good day people. ;D

And ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.

Yes, agree to disagree. ;)

Okay, first things first, i'm really sorry for not updating my blog. Its kinda impossible for me to use the computer nowadays, let alone go on net. Why? Because my house is currently on renovation, and i've practically brought all these electrical devices into my pig-sty room. And because the only thing that can entertain me is my cell phone, i've been using it quite a lot, so the battery runs out at an incredible speed. -,- Trust me, i've been gritting my teeth over this issue.

So anyway, i just felt like blogging today because... well.. i'm not sure. I feel like lately, i'm always so edgy, and i tend to fight back. The urge of winning is stronger than anything. Yes, i do wonder if something is wrong with me. I get so worked up on small matters and get jumpy with everything. For instance, yesterday... i saw something that bothered me quite annoyingly, i was irritated. But i kept on telling myself. He's just being friendly. No biggie. But in the end, it got to me. I won't deny it, yes, i was angry. I was uncomfortable. I wasn't feeling safe. But most important,i'm afraid. Of what, i don't know. How many times had i been assured that i won't be alone, that i don't need to worry? I know, perhaps if i'm thinking this way, it means i have no faith. Yes, i do admit, perhaps i have been so close to him that i did not care about how you REALLY feel, i shrugged away any feeling that you wouldn't feel uncomfortable, thinking that you would understand it. But perhaps i was wrong, as always.

The whole point of this post, is i don't know too. Maybe i wanted to get things straight. That yes, i love him. But as a friend, a very good friend, my best friend. And it ends there. Whatever your friends say, i don't care, and i hope you don't care too. I just want you to know, whatever happened yesterday, it was mostly my fault. I was narrow-minded. My mood swings are terrible and i suck at self-control. I didn't want to admit that MAYBE you were right, i wanted to win, i guess. Its two different case. I was hoping that maybe you would get tired of me and just leave me, so i can have a reason to cry without seeming like a cry-baby. But no, you were always so patient. So caring, although you're not really perfect, but to me, its these imperfections that made you so perfect that for the briefest moment, i thought you were perhaps a guardian angel sent from God. Which made me so mad at you. Pretty ironic huh? Yeah, i know, i'm this idiotic fool who doesn't know what she has. Sweelynn told me countless times that she envied me that i got someone like you. Wow, if you're reading this, you must be silently laughing to yourself. ;D i know you are. Ahaha. ;)

So i just wanna end this post, to let you know, thanks for understanding me. For tolerating my barely tolerable attitude. Gosh, what did i do to deserve someone like you. XD

Hey people, i know its been a long time since i blogged. Well, i've decided to turn over a new leaf, and study hard for the coming exam. Whoa, shocked? Yeah, shocking news happen in your everyday life. Not to worry too much about it though, I'm PURRR-FECTLY fine. ;D thanks for your concern!! ( Perasan. )

Saturday.

Anyway, nothing interesting happened. Really. Just that i chat with an old classmate of mine last saturday. I printscreen these while we were chatting through webcam, haha, shh~ he doesn't know. :D We played Checkers and Uno. It was really fun, gosh, i didn't know it was so fun. LOL.

Today.

We had debate competition. Gosh. -,- I don't think we did VERY well. We were really....=.= Our oppposing team was really good. When they shot all the questions over, i think my jaws drop. But i think i managed to close them just in time before a fly went in. -,- ARGH!! When i finish my speech, i wrote loads of things on a piece of paper. And they were all repeated words

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But i pretended to be writing some SERIOUS stuffs. LOL. -,- I'm really a good actor right? HAHA. LOL. -,-

So yeah, in the end, we won, and our opposing team has a good attitude, not like some teams who get so worked up . -,- I mean, i kept on getting ready to lose. Guess i really wasn't confident then. But anyway, after that, one of the members of our opposing team came to tell us that if we needed help on our next competition. You bet we do. She is the one that made us all panic. Gosh. -,- She was saying everything so fast that i can't really catch what she said. LOL. -,- But anyway, it was a good match, everyone wanted to see because of Ke Ten. She was the best ''debater'' in the whole competition. I totally agree. LOL.

And i gotta go now, mom really get's worked up when i don't do what she sayd immediately. BYee! ;D

Oh Crap.

Oh Crap. I am really so dead. God, why did you do this? Okay, maybe You did this for a reason, and i don't know what. But God, if You know that a miracle is going to happen, God, let your will be done. I really, leave everything into Your hands. So dear God, You gotta help me. Kay?

And Mother Mary, please mom, please protect me. -,- I'm such a weakling so you gotta protect your daughter mom. -,- No parents can stand there watching their own child get hurt right? So mom, you really gotta help me.

And my guardian angel, i know you will be beside me, guiding me through everything. And if you think i'm gonna explode, you gotta help me calm down. If not, things will really turn out worse. -,- PLEASE? Friends dont leave friends to die. -,- LOL!

Dear GOd, i say this in your precious name, AMEN. -,-

How can this happen?

Yeah, exactly, just turn the page joan, you'll get on again.

Why do i feel so down? Why should i even care? I mean, its over right? Gosh. Look at me, pathetic, i'm using my blog to listen to myself talk. I thought i'd let go, but it seems like, i haven't been able to put it down? But why was i so sure in the first place i'd let go? -,- even if i did, why is there such a stupid feeling on my chest? Gosh, i'm really gonna go insane. -,-

I suppose , this is what everyone would feel when they.. well, you know. But, i'm suppose to have let go. -,- Gosh. I don't know what should i do. I know, that i don't feel that way anymore, but... no matter how, there was a once. ARGH. i don't wanna care. I'm so tired. -,-

A post to my beloved Yinglee. ;D

My dearest, Chong Ying Lee. (YYYY----EEE-----OOOOOO!! ) XD

So yea, y'll know that from the title , its a post for my yinglee, i meant to type this a long time ago, but, i didn't really know what to say. So i'll just say what's in my heart now.

It was fate that joined us together. I would never have known her , if i hadn't join the prefectorial board, and of course, our sisters, and maybe the fact that we were in the same class. Since i've join the prefectorial board, i'm not really comfortable with... everything. But, thanks to "her" ( and of course some of my other friends) , i finally adapted to this kind of life. LOL. This girl, there are really no words to describe except GENG. haha. She is the one and only Chong Ying Lee , the siao zha bo one. XD

How do i start? Her personalities? Gosh, she has quite an awesome personality. I like her straightforward, honesty, craziness and wildness. She doesn't care what people think of her. How i envy her of that , i wish i could think that way too. And, she's really brave too. To do absolutely stupid things. :P Sometimes, she makes me wanna kill her because of some stupid things, but deep down, i know that if i kill her, i may have to live in this quiet , stupid, ghost-town-class of mine alone. And i'll end up killing myself too. XD Another thing i envy about her is that, whatever she says makes absolute sense, damn, how i wish i could do that, everyone would listen to me then. *MUAHAHAHAHA! oh well, dream on Joan. * =.=

Yinglee is someone i admire a lot. Even though we've just met last year, and we're not even as close as i am to nicholas goh (which i really wasn't close at all) we're so close now as if we've known each other for our entire lives! She knows what i'm thinking before I even know what am i thinking. (SOMETIMES) but i don't know what she thinks at all , or what she likes too , yeah i know, i'm not such a good friend after all. XD . We've gone through loads of ups and downs together this year, she knows my darkest and deepest secrets, and i know hers too. Its like we've really known each other forever.

So i just wanna say, i love you Chong Ying Lee. You made up my days during that incident. You sacrificed for me to be happy (remember this? XD) , you changed my point of view towards people, and you changed my life just like how Sweelynn changed it for the better. I am glad that we've met yinglee, aren't you? I mean, the sampatt ways we are, i think we pretty much make a good team , don't you think so? Its like the next yingyang. XD So anyway, i gotta go now. Homework siren! *BI BO BI BO BI BO!!* XD Love you muchh. >

It'll be okayy.

Hey people, its around 1 o'clock in the morning now, 12.56 a.m to be exact , so i'm not sure what should i say, good MORNING? haha. So anyway, i've decided to go counseling, do not worry my fellow friends, i am just fine, just that, i have a lot on my mind lately, and perhaps i have some unsolved problems that has been too long in me, and i finally am losing myself now. =.= Oh happy new year.

I don't know where should i start, start from the beginning you say? And where is the beginning?I realised, there are beginnings, and until you come to realise the present, only then you'll know, you've come a long way from home. And sometimes, you might feel , you wanna go back, but there is no turning back is there? There is only finding a solution, or you just keep going on and on and see where does it leads you. Maybe now is the time for us to just keep on making mistakes, just go with the flow, and see what isolated island we land on, perhaps go through what Robinson Crusoe has gone through (but i doubt that the survival percentage is high) -,-

What am i hoping now? I don't know. I don't wanna get my hopes high, why ? Perhaps the fear of getting hurt again, perhaps i have a phoebia towards this, or perhaps, i don't have the confidence to make him stay? Or maybe 3 of these with a couple more perhaps that i'm lazy to list out? I don't know, but what i know is, for now, i wanna remain like this, enjoy every moment , live life to the fullest , and love someone with all my heart , even though sometimes i feel so frustrated with him. I guess, that's what happens with your loved ones, you're frustrated with them, but you love them more than, perhaps, your own life? Maybe i do, but i just... don't wanna admit it. I love him, i know i do, maybe sometimes i just wanna get myself to believe that, all these while, i didn't really hold on because i love him, its just for the sake of holding on, but now, after thinking through everything, i finally realized, i made every right choice loving him, he is the one i want, perhaps i would want to spend my life with him. But, i'm thinking way too far already, the most important is the present right? Don't worry people, i'm happy with my life, i love the way i am now, and i will try to NOT regret any choices i've made, if not i'm gonna be whining all the day . Haha.

So, nothing really interesting happened in school nowadays, its like a ghost town here. We don't have those bright laughters, crappy people, shake-your-bootie people nowadays, goshhh. C'mon, liven up abit aye? We'll figure out some really cool games, or maybe, lame ones. Either way, let's look on the bright side that we've still got each other eh? ;D oops. Its 1.21 a.m. now, i really gotta go people, if not i'm gonna be the prettiest panda in the whole universe. XDD (;

Good night people! (; You guys rocks.

Wedding Dress

Lately, i'm becoming addicted to the song "Wedding Dress" by Big Bang. I don't know why, i just went to sleep with my mp3 on and i was listening to it and i fell asleep. And the next morning, my head is filled with that song. =.= Gosh! haha. these 2 wedding dress are pretty right? I was searching the net and i saw this, perhaps for my future wedding dress i would choose this kind. HAHA. -,- LOL.

Anyway, its near schooling time. So i gotta go! (; Byee peeps.

Eclipse ♥ part 2

Sweet couple. (; ♥

OMG. people. i am like suffocating now~ i just watched eclipse yesterday. And guess what? Its is so absofreakinglutely AWESOME. Words can't describe how i am feeling now. It is really, romantic , cool , and its action-packed this time. Not quite like new moon, which is conversational. Yea yea. I heard the feedbacks for new moon are ... well, not-so-good. But this one, omgg joan breathe breathe. Phew, i'm fine . haha. LOL

So anyway, yesterday i went to a church seminar from 9 in the morning till 5 in the evening, and yeapp, i went to mid valley straight away to join my sisters! (; so we started to shop for clothes.. FOR ME. -,- well, female ones. Which i am not really thrilled at that idea, but anyway, i can't do anything so stupid anymore, so what's the harm? XD after that, we went to secret recipe to eat, gosh, we were practically gobbling everything cuz we were kinda running out of time. Oops. :P in the end, thanks to our BELOVED melanie , *smiles weakly* -,- we missed the front part which pretty much bugged me the whole night. -,- but nevermind that, at least she came. LOL.

They cut this part. -,- LOL!

So we bought popcorns and went in. Sorry, all of us were tumbling in, because it was in the dark, and by golly! i had to keep my mouth occupied by eating the popcorns to prevent myself from shouting . -,- and when we finished the popcorn (which was at VAMPIRE speed) i had to stuff my knuckles into my mouth everytime i feel like i'm going to lose it. Well, you are right to pity the person sitting beside me, SIAO SUAN! haha. luckily i'm not watching with him, he might have the fright of his life. LOL! and me , mel , sweelynn , and siao suan were talking all the time about who is hot int he movie. HAHA!! okay okay, here comes the funny part guys, they have those make out scenes right? and yeah, i was like eating my popcorn and freezing halfway, and when they start to make out, they cut the part. =.= CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! THEY CUT THE PART!! GOSH!! and i was like, watching watching.... and *cut* and i was told siao suan , WTH!! deng! they cut it liao! -,- and she was laughing her head off. OH GOSH! haha.

After that, i was so hyped up that i kept on saying damn nice damn nice! OH gosh! and then later, we kinda played around in midvalley, like, we were going down the escalator and we went to a side first, so nicholas went down alone, then later he walked up again, and we went down. OMG! so funny larh! Later, skip skip skip.. hmm.. oh yeah, me and nicholas chased each other in the mall. How childish i know! Nicholas's idea. ;P nah, just kidding haha. So then we all went back home, nicholas and i were following siao suan's car so we laughed practically all the way home, but before that, we went somewhere to eat, i mean, siao suan's parents, nicholas ordered too since he hadn't had his dinner. LOL. I ordered a drink only. Thank you siao suan's parents for belanja-ing me! *90 degrees bow* hehe.

So that's all people! By the way, ECLIPSE IS FREAKING NICE. Please do not come up and tell me eclipse sucks or what.LOL -,- byee people!

Eclipse ♥

Aww, ain't this sweet? (;

Hey peeps, if you were wondering if i had watched eclipse, nope i haven't, but i am going to tomorrow to watch with my besties. (; ahh.. i can't wait!! Itz juz tzoo exzaiding. Oh gosh, its so hard to speak in french accent. muahaha. Sigh people, its been quite an interesting week overall. I did some really unexpected things. Like.. oh well, you guys probably know. :D and these few days, i always went to sleep with a big smile on my face. ;) even though yesterday wasn't exactly one of the best days because it was parent's day and my mom was suppose to go and take my report card. But in the end, she didn't want to. She said she didn't want to go and be humiliated in front of people. GAhh. whatever. I am so freakin' tired and I do not want to give a damn bout it anymore because its killing me.

Anyway , i really would like to say again here, we're not that kind of relationship, plus studies come first. So..honestly guys, take a break , give US a break. We're just friends, walking together talking together, is that somethign so wrong and you guys have to go all, "WHOA, are you kidding me?" or " are you guys together?" or "hey, how long have you guys been together?" WHOA! Chill it people! you guys can't just simply assume something just because you saw something that might look like SOMETHING when its really not. =.= no, seriously guys, do not think anywhere further, but stop right at friends. Okay?? I knew you guys would listen to my explanation. Thank you thank you! ;P LOve youu people. haha. (;

Baby tell me what you waiting for. ;P

Hey peeps, i'm blogging....in school. AHA! Cool eh? Hmm...let's see..actually nothing interesting happened these few days. I mean , seriously , I think the world's running outta laughter. Haha. Anyway, since i'm here , i might as well blog about what happened yesterday.

Okay, people... see, during civic, we were on this topic about "warisan tradisional" or something about that. Yeah.. last week, we did tikar mengkuang...which was a total disaster because out beloved Nicholas Goh forgotten to inform us to bring colour paper. And the teacher was so demanding and she just said , "I tak kisah, i nak kamu buat, i nak kamu pass up hari ini, i nak... i nak...i tak kisah...". DENG. =.= Me and Yinglee were like..gosh-what-is-your-problem look. -,- So anyway, guess what we used to do the ultimate stupid tikar mengkuang?? Okayy, yinglee had a few pieces of colour paper, few, as in, TWO.=.= haha. so yeah.. we divided the piece of paper, and guess what ? we ran outta colour paper, so we used?? The Scholastic book list. OWhh.. brilliant aren't we ? XD. And yeah... so this week, the teacher brought in congkak for us. Whee~ not that fun. I mean, i play it all day long at home when i was small and now i have to play it again? Oh puh-lease. SO anyway, i could see that yinglee was kinda excited about it. She was like, hey i wanna play i wanna play! haha. and okay, i was versus-ing Jovyn that time. and she started first so she got a long time going round and round... and we were exchanging sarcastic words all the time. Like, when i want her to stop, i would say, hey, your luck is back. And then she would be so mad.. and everyone was like saying she's gonna win... and i just said simply, i win all the time. i should let people have a chance.. and Jovyn was like... SHUT UP YOU BITCH. ahaha. Gosh.. and when we were gonna play finish , i just said jokingly , " hey , winner takes it all . The winner keeps the game. Woohoo! Go Jovyn. Compliments from joan. " ahaha. Gosh. it was quite an interesting period aye? Phew. My neck is sore now.. cuz i'm not suppose to go online and BLOG , but to cari maklumat. And what does it have to do with the neck you ask? Cuz the teacher is sitting behind me, so i have to keep on looking if she's looking at what i'm doing . Ouch. The pain the pain!!! -,- LOL.

Hmm.. last night? Nah.. nothing happened. Just that i promised him i would see him after his school time and before my school time. Whee. Pretty cool plan huh? hehe . Yeah, you can bet.. i went to sleep with big smile on my face. (; gosh. things start going right now. I guess i have to thank God for making all of these come true. Without God, i would be totally useless. Or maybe, without God, i wouldn't exist. Oh yeah, yinglee was suppose to go to petroscience today until the first four period. But because soon chern wasn't going, so yinglee didn't want to go. Quite absurb if you ask me, i mean like, its such a good opportunity to go learn and play at the same time.. ponteng ma. YOR. and i've already got my " ponteng schedule" all plan. and what is my schedule? Every bell ring, i will go and see him. LOL. see? isn't that a wonderful opportunity? GAHH. So anyway people, i gotta go. Because i think i'm gonna be killed if the teacher finds out. haha. Byee peeps!

I need you now. ♥

I don't know what will happen if I trust you one more time. But I love you more than I did.

Hey peeps, kinda feeling a mixture of feelings now. Sad, angry, happy, perhaps even frustrated. Its all jumbled up and i'm feeling so tired of life. I mean, what's going on now. One part seems in place, him and me. ♥ But about my friendship , it doesn't seem to be getting better. I fight with my best friend all day long, and i'm tired and sick of it. I reckon its probably maybe I can't accept the stupid things that she's doing nowadays. Its just honestly, seriously, STUPID. If you ask me. Because you would not believe what she did if i told you. So i'm not gonna tell you. :X =.= It is absolutely the most absurd thing you will ever hear. =.=

Oh gosh. Everything seems to come so fast. I cannot believe that its been 3months since he told me that thing. And now, look. Its really unbelievable for me. I mean, i know for some people, you will say, he likes you,you like him. What's the problem ? Go for it guys! Okayy, lemme get this straight with you people, i mean, we're not that kind of relationship. Really. Just friends. Like more than best friends, sister brotherly love? Oh gosh . who am i trying to kid? =.= I can actually imagine you peoples' face, its like :" UH HUH. KEEP TALKING. BUT NO ONE IS GONNA BELIEVE YOU." =.= Sigh. I wish time could go back. I want to be in his arms again, i wanna know what's the feeling to fall in love again and again and again. Its just so electrifying everytime i see him. Its either my whole face goes red like its getting ready to explode, or i can feel the heat travelling through my body at the speed of light. =.=

To someone, I do love you, but I want you to know what you're getting yourself into. Because if i get hurt again, i don't think i'll survive it. I've ran out of tears. I can't do it anymore. And please, don't think too far. Think of the present. Thinking too far doesn't help the situation. All we have to do is just keep our minds close from anything-that-is-not-suitable-for-our-age, and do THOSE kind of things. Just.... stay by me. I want to remember your presence beside me, not to remember that you have once stood beside me. (; ILY OPO. do you know that? ;P perhaps you mean everything to me. Once more.

Weee~

Okay okay , people. I'm back yeah. Gosh, its been really hectic these days. What with the chinese elocution , pandu stuffs , and some relationship problems to take care of. Sigh . Lately, i've been thinking a lot. Seriously, it seems like everything i do is a matter between life or death. And I am so damn FREAKING tired of this. And really, i've noticed that one of my best friend is making the biggest mistake of her life. Literally. Not just one . It seems as if she's lost her common sense, so she's doing stupid things all the time. If she weren't my best friend, i would have killed her. =.=

Its not that i'm jealous that you got into a relationship again. Really . I mean , i wouldn't want to go into a relationship. But , honestly , you really should think again. If that's what you really want , i won't say anything about it. But the problem is you don't even have any feelings for xxx! You know, it would make people think that you're just playing his feelings . Not that i think like that. Don't get the wrong idea , but i don't want you to repeat the mistake i made. I thought i love him too, but it wasn't like what i thought. Anyway, that has pass, and i ... I don't know what to say. Scissors boy has the same opinion as me. So... break a leg. =.=

I like the way you sound in the morning

we're on the phone without a warning

I realized your laugh is the best sound i have ever heard.

I like the way i can't keep my focus

I watch you talk but you didn't notice

I hear the words but all i can think is we should be together.

(;

I wanna fall in love with you again.

I won't deny the fact that I cried. Because you really mean a lot to me, but no matter what , you've left a scar right in the middle of my heart . Sorry can't cure it , because , the damage is done .

What A Day.

Geez guys. Something went very wrong today. I'm really pissed off at everything . To start , my shoes. The whole freaking day my shoes was wet , and i was like , trying to chill. But in the end, some idiots who actually "STIMULATED" my anger, got the best of me.

To her , so what? You're not trying to hide ? Find someone ? Please , why don't you just tell me that you're gonna talk to that person ? I don't care, and i'm sorry if I was pulling you away , cuz.. well , cuz i thought maybe you would want to avoid some stuffs. Well , i guess i don't know you so well like i thought . You might as well spill it all out and get it over, done with. Because, hey.. Its not like i'll die. I could have saved myself from all the trouble from racking my brain to think of the best way or solution. But if you don't want , that's totally fine with me, i'm totally absolutely fine with it. You can go and be with him for all I care. You know? Pfft. But instead what did you do? You ran over , and i was shouting to you like someone who lost her mind to come back. You know , you could at least tell me so I won't make a fool out of myself. Like i said, its your life. You can honestly do whatever you want , and i won't stop you. Cuz you know what? Now i know that perhaps i wasn't always first . Which proved it today. During this incident. DO you know, how much pain it was? Did you know, i had to keep my jaws together to prevent myself from crying? DID you know , that i had to bear that unworthy person's glare? If i did not bear it, i would have dug out his eyes. DID YOU EVEN KNOW THIS? you don't , do you? Does the word sister even mean anything to you? No, scratch that, I should say, FRIEND. Does it? I can just say , i'm totally disappointed in your behaviour today. You still ask me to not get so worked up? Try having this, and let's see who's patience is better.

To another one, i don't have the right to say anything, i know. I totally get it, and i won't say anything sensitive. But i'll just say this, if you think that the other group is better, go on. I don't mind. I don't want you to think us as your burden. I didn't even know you had a blog, you never even told me. And you thank some people whom you barely know, whereas you've know us for at least 1 year, and you didn't even mention us. Fine , i admit, we're not as cool as them, we're those goody goody who only study and talk about books, yeah, at least its better than wasting time on things that can't help you at all. You know what? I really hope that you could at least tell me or us, about whatever you haven't told us. Or you can choose to keep a secret forever, but nothing on earth stays a secret forever.

When I needed you most when I needed a friend, you let me down now

Friendship is delicate as a glass, once broken it can be fixed but there will always be cracks

Sunday School

Okay okay, perhaps there will be something interesting for this post. Cuz i just came back from church , and during sunday school , a couple of hilarious incidents happened. Okay , today's topic was about DREAMS AND DECISIONS and HAPPINESS.

Life can be exciting. Sometimes it seems as if we are changing and growing not only from day to day but also from seconds to seconds. Our dreams for the future may change just as fast. Whether we realize it or not , we are making many decisions about our lives each day, These choices can spell the difference between success and failure in life, right? I , for one , when i was a little girl , i used to dream that i could be one of the princess in those fairy tales , i bet all girls have thought about being princess right? And your prince charming would come and take you by the hand and lead you dancing in the woods. *gazes off dreamily... and snaps back to life.* Okay! FOCUS. erm.. where were we? Oh right, princesses. Well , here 's the real world isn't it? There aren't anything like these , the categories should give us the idea right? FAIRY TALES, and fairy tales DO NOT exist. Teacher Anne told us she used to wish she could own a chocolate factory when she was a little girl too. Yeah , i did have that dream too , that is , after watching Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. haha. (;

Okay , moving on to the topic of HAPPINESS , the teacher assigned us to write out 3 things that make us happy , wanna know mine? Travelling , reading and spending time with my love ones . One of the boys in my class said , he wished he could have an interview with the Holland striker (he mentioned the name , but i didn't catch what he said ). Another guy who was kind plump said , eating makes him happy. haha , he lives to eat . That's really one of the best. haha. Now , explain your understanding of happiness. Are you thinking?? It really is hard isn't it? So when teacher asked me , i just shrugged. Because i 'm not sure what would be the best answer. The teacher moved on and asked everyone what is their understanding of happiness , one answered be happy with your life and just live life to the fullest . Now , teacher told us her definition of happiness . Its being in the right relationship with Jesus and doing what God wants us to do. Perhaps i'm not mature enough , but i don't understand this statement. Oh well , i suppose i'll understand it sooner or later.

Anyway , the whole afternoon i was having guitar class , and whoaa. the tips of my finger is numb now. Honestly, i do envy those people who could play the guitar and they're totally indulged in the music , so.. in order to reach my goal , i have to keep holding on. *play avril lavigne's KEEP HOLDING ON * LOL. haha. anyway, that's all folks. (; love youu people. CHEERS! ♥

Speechless over the edge and just Breathless

hey people, I know i know. Please forgive me if my posts have been absolutely bored and you haven't even got to the second line you're yawning your head off . Well , i sincerely hope that your head hasn't dropped if not that would be like... whoaa. *rolls eyes.* Swtz. Okay okay. Um... so what would you guys like me to talk about? What a stupid question huh?? Well, i'm just gonna... tell you about what happened lately.

Friday

I went to attend the debate competition. Do not get the wrong idea, i'm not competing, i'm just one of the audience. And yeah, although there are quite a few weird parts in the debate, overall.. its actually quite good. They've got the points, and stuffs. But i'm not sure that they have the confidence to present it. Anyway, congrats to the winning group. And i wasn't feeling exactly awesome that day , and one of the pelajar got on my nerves. Geez , i didn't want to be so harsh, but trust me, you got yourself into deep shit. Anyway, who cares about that pelajar. Moving on , when i went to practice my elocution , saw him, and i slipped and bit my own tongue. Gosh. Went to see him during recess. That's about it.

Just went to view sweelynn's blog. Seems like she'd let go too. Yinglee and she had let go. I'm the only one left, i thought very long about it , its not a matter about whether i WANT or not , its a matter about me clinging on to the past , i may be stubborn at times like i said , and sometimes i feel like , i can't let go . But sometimes, i feel like, the time has come, it is indeed time to put him down and move on. But i can't, i honestly can't. If i can't see him one day in school , i don't feel ...right. Waiting for his msgs until my heart aches so much makes me insane. I hope you know what you want , because things are getting out of hand. I'm falling for you all over again. ;(((

Baby tell me you love me. ♥

0701 -Today.

Okay, today nothing interesting happened. Except when i went to school to do the Star Magazine this morning , I think Yinglee either got up on the wrong side of the bed , or she just went mad. haha. You know what guys? OUr magazine wasn't exactly a magazine, it was more like a folio-type magazine. And we were like, "wey , very k yeng lor".... and then, all of us will think, "nevermind, as long as we submit it in, we get pizza voucher. " so all of us were like PIZZA PIZZA PIZZA PIZZA. LOL.

And then, the prefects had to take our lembaga picture, so we queue up according to our heights and got ready. And seriously, i don't know why the hell they need so long to take larh, i'm becoming burnt larh . LOL. SO me and nicol lor were like, hey guys! why are we waiting? Yo, man. I don't fancy the thought of dying so fast larh. So after taking finish.... pretty much nothing happened.

Oh yea, when we went back class and we had KH with 2a12, so i sat with phuiyeng, yinglee sat with soon chern in front.OMG. Something damn funny happened. I don't know how to put it. If you wanna know, ask me directly. I'll tell you.

Yeah, honestly nothing funny happened except that we told each other horror stories which freaked yinglee out so much that she had to shout everytime. =.= Gosh. I nearly burst out laughing la. I'm not trying to be 幸灾乐祸，but seriously, now i know her weakness. Muahaha! LOL.

Okay , erm.. i think that's all. Its just a lame post, cuz i'm feeling bored now. LOL .

Oh darling i wish you were here. ♥

0625 ♥

sweelynn, i love you . Best friends for life. I promise you this. (; ♥

Although its not exactly sweelynn's birthday, but we had a pre-celebration for her at pizza hut. ♥ muaks i love you sweelynn. You know you're very important in my heart.

Okay, so after school, we walked to pizza hut. On the way, we were practically laughing our heads off about things. And then, we ordered and did some things like camwhore and stuffs. Haha. This is the first time i really laughed so much and took so much pics. Thanks to sweelynn.

Sweelynn, there are some things that i would like to tell you. I mean, i don't know how awkward it will be, but i still wanna say. You know, you really are my best friend. You know me like your own hand. You know what i think and you always say it out. Which pisses me off. Sometimes. haha. (; but i honestly love you. Muaks. ♥

You know, i really think that you are someone sent down from God. Or perhaps you are suppose to be my sister that God forgot to give me. Ahh, my long lost sister. (; ILY.

Hey guys , so sorry that i haven't been able to update my baby blog. Why? Because i've been occupied these few days. By?? moi teevee and moi comp, and i've been busy swimming too. doing some work out. Cool eh? LOL. and, i've also spent my few nights sleeping at 2 o'clock in the morning. hehe, as for the reason, you don't need to know. (; ♥

Lately, i feel so alive again, do you know what am i talking about? If you don't , nevermind . I'll tell u the feeling. Um.. have you ever felt like, well, something really bad happened, and then, because of something that happened which is totally awesome, you feel that happy flying feeling? I'm really feeling that now, i've got my pals, i've got him (as a really good friend), and everything seems to be going perfectly, like everything you ever wanted. Felt it before? Yea? Feels good right? No? Oh too bad, but not to worry, you'll be able to have a taste of it sooner or later. (;

Oh gosh, things are really getting out of hand now. 爱情不能用谎话来解决.i learnt this lately. but i'll try to make things better. anyway, gotta go now. Goodbye! (; ♥

8th of June - a memorable day (PERHAPS?)

Okay, i was out all day. I mean, i went out in the morning at 10 something by sweelynn's car, and came back around 5 something. Well, i went to celebrate my senior's birthday at times square with sweelynn, keeseong ,desmond junweng and a guy named kok poh( i think? and i didn't tlak to him for the whole day). Yeah, well. Um.. so then when me and sweelynn reached, we sorta went every floor to find McDonalds cuz they said they would meet us there, well, i'm a ''road nerd'', so i wouldn't know where it is, nor how to read the map. But, luckily i had sweelynn, if not i am so dead. =.= Okay, so when we wanted to reach there, i suddenly asked sweelynn, "Eh, i....look okay right?" okay, yeah i admit i am kinda nervous (so what?-,-)cuz this is the first time going out with... well, guys. LOL. Okay so cut the crap, we went to buy tickets first (sweelynn and i didn't know what movie we were watching and we didn't even ask cuz we were scared they would ask us to choose) LOL. and yeah, so we bought the tickets and went to the karaoke place. LOL. at first i was like, hesitating and asking myself, do i really wanna go in and sing? and then, because of something, i was like, nah.. i don't think so. and then they were like, what? we bought the tickets so.. okay fine just go in larh. And its like we're walking in the maze, omg.. its really a wonder i didn't get lost. LOL. then , we went into a room, and then um.. sing la. I didn't really sing a lot, (cuz my singing is bad) LOL. and so... we did everything , sing talk laugh whatever.

Next , we went to those .. dunno how to say those places, LOL. Its like those games place la, i've always wanted to go in since i was small but my mom and dad were always lying to me saying there are bad people inside, which made me terrified. LOL but not now la. So i went in and played the shooting baskets game, damn fun man. But there is something damn funny, the first ball i shoot, its bounced out of it and flew out, and junweng was standing behind me gawking. LOL omg..i nearly snorted. LOL. but, well, my attire did not suite well with snorting, so yeah. =.= what am i wearing? U get the picture. GAHH. =.= And then, sweelynn wanted to play the sweet thingy, i didn't want to. So i THINK keeseong gave her some tokens and she grabbed the sweets. O.o * are you thinking what i'm thinking? yeah! high 5. shh~* LOL =.= then we went out and i bought cotton candy, (i know! my dream came true!! i mean, i've been wanting to eat it for such a long time) LOL. and then,bought it, i had trouble opening it, in the end, we had to ask the guys help, so embarassing la. =.= and then we went to watch SHREK FOREVER AFTER. Comments? Not a bad movie, great graphic design and all those larh. And yeah, when we came out, we saw meishan , siew mun, and karmen, and we were like, HEY YOU WATCHED THAT TOO? bla bla bla... and i think they saw who's behind us and they just.... sorta took off and ran. LOL. =.= and then, we went to the toilets(sweelynn)=.= and then when we came out, i realized we were short of someone, YAP JUNWENG. why arh? he always run off dunno where. =.= GAHH. and then we were all like, hey where is he where is he? Call lorh. Then we went into BORDERS (yesh! paradise! -,-) . I looked up some books there, and the guys were like, looking back, "??? where are they?? YOR." and then came back for us. LOL. -,- sorry la, the books goda me. =.=

So anyway, after movie we went..... oh yeah, actually we wanted to go bowling and stuffs, then sweelynn's mother came, so went home, when we were walking down, the boys were behind us too, and me and sweelynn were like, err... why arh? but we didn't care la. And then, we got lost, so in the end we asked the boys, and i think they wanted to go the same way as us, so...yeah. we all went together, and then bye bye. LOL chat through sms with someone for a while.. umm.. yeah, That's about it. so... really, i had an awesome time, i mean like, this time all us shy marh, haven't warm up, and when we were about to warm up, its time to go. SO yeah, if there is a next time all of us know how to do already. LOL .

um.. lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY karseng.
the most original wish?

HAIRPEE BURBDAY. (;

LOL

I'm so sick of love songs.

Hey guys, its the first day of the hols. Let's partayy! LOL. Nah i'm just kidding. But, hey actually we can, its just that we need the people and the crowds. That's when the party is starting to heat up. YEAH! Okay, please ignore my hyperness or high-ness. You can't really help feeling excited when the holidays have come, right? Well, i'm not really excited. I seriously do not know what i'm saying now. GOSH. I've lost MOI mind. *faints.

I mean, can you imagine two whole weeks not seeing...?? I can't. The thirst for him is just so... Sigh. I don't know what word is best used to describe my feeling. So anyway, i'm gonna brief you guys about what happened on friday.

Friday....
Prefects had a V.I.M( very important meeting la!)=.= All of us, seem to know that the atmosphere was suppose to be very serious so our expressions were all very serious too. (*snort. YEAH RIGHT)And as we took our seats gracefully, (actually, we were sitting on the floor, and not-so-gracefully) all of us could hear how fast the pulse is running in each others veins(actually, we can't hear at all, we were busy chit-chatting about who's gonna get pecat,LOL) . And then, our head prefect gave a wonderful speech that touched all our hearts(more like scolding that BROKE our hearts, LOL!! JUst kidding)and he said, he was very proud of us, of what we did, we did our jobs wonderfully( technically, he said, he was VERY DISAPPOINTED at what we did, we did not carry out our duties at all). Next, he wanted to check all our stuff in our pockets, and when he saw what we had in our pockets, he was shocked to see that all of us brought everything. (no, actually he was kinda surprised that all of us DID NOT bring the things we were required to bring). And then he said, all of us may go back to our seats, ( NO. He did not say this, he said, who didn't bring anything, dendaan fizikal) and all of us went down and sat down gracefully again( actually, we had to do 20 times up and downs because we did not carry out our duties, 10 times for not bringing any stuff, i did 30 times. so you can guess i did not bring 3 things, BUMMER!and we sure as hell did not sit down gracefully, cuz when we finished, all of us were moaning=.=)and then the other AJKs gave their speech(aka SCOLDING or WARNING). And we gave them a round of applause(no, some of them were giving them the silent treatment, not me, i'm a guide, we do this all the time, easy peasy.LOL)And that was the end. I turned my head and saw the morning session prefects were getting ready to board the bus(technially, i was straining my neck to see if i could get a glimpse of him) and then i saw him( NO I DID NOT-,-) and later, i took a stroll with ah bock, admiring the beautiful scene of our beloved school( more like rushing though everybody and not even taking a glance at our surroundings) i don't know why they are running( SURE AS HELL I DO) and then i saw him. (yeah, it was kinda dramatic scene cuz ah bock was singing [more like screaming=.=and i was staring up at him too. GAHH]) and then we walked off( yeah we did , i don't think i can bear to see him going off)

So that's all. BYee (;

If you're sorry, leave me alone.

Gosh its been really hectic these few days. I never got the time to slow down, sit down and take deep breaths. Its always rushing here and there like we're making preparations for world end (LOL, TOUCHWOOD! * runs off and touch a wood *) LOL. These few days i'm really starting to feel semangat a bit larh. Don't ask me why, cuz i ain't gonna tell you why. Cuz i sendiri pun tak tahu. :X

Okay, tell you guys something tres funny. Yesterday my sis was packing her luggage as she is going to a prefect kursus today. So when we were eating dinner, my sis got a phone call, it was from her friend (i don't wanna mention name, LOL) and then i heard her ask my sis, what kind of bag is my sis bringing. so my sis say, she's bringingthose like hand carry de la. Then suddenly my sis laugh, then i look up, and heard my sis say, err..you mean your luggage 50 cm long or bla bla bla something like that la, then my mom put down her chopsticks and ask me,"tomorrow they are going by airplane arh? why need to measure ? " Then i laugh and nearly spit out my soup. LMAO. Then i told my mom, " the last time i checked, they are going by bus." then we continue eating. OMG.so damn freaking funny that time. LOL.

Um, i'll just brief you guys on what i ddi yesterday. Well, i came home from school, bathe, ate, watch tv, and just keep on sms-ing with... LOL. =.= Yeap. VERY. LOL . i didn't study at all. So i didn't study yesterday, i gotta study now. BYEE. =)