life is gettting worse...life is..sigh..not-so-good...

life is average
not as good as i thought already
i sort out my feelings for that jerk and i'm 100%sure that i don't think of him anymore..
and after that,i had a feeling that everything is gonna be okay..



little did i know..
it was actually worse than the situation i had before..
okay.i'm sorry to my friends that maybe my attitude was bad..
but..guys..you don't need to avoid me..
and to her....
well..i just wanna say sorry if i have ever did wrong to you before..
i don't curse people..and i won't hate you..
that't the way i am..
welcome to my life.

to be hurt

to feel lost

to be left out in the dark

to be kicked when you're down

to feel like you've been pushed around

to be on the edge of breaking down

and no one's there to save you

no you don't know what its like

welcome to my life

friends come and go...if you're lucky..they stay..it's true..

It's a typical tuesday today...
I lost my so-called friends...
i can't believe i trusted them..
i thought they were my friends..
at least,I thought so...obviously...

and i don't know what's wrong with me either!
everytime i walk near them..
they would stop talking..
and then start a new convo..
i mean,what is it that everybody knows..and i'm an idiot standing there blinking my eyes and staring at them?
oh god!!!i'm always the odd one out!!

i just hope we'll all be friends..
no need one left out...
but i don't think that's the way they think...
i'm alone...
all alone...
in my big big world of loneliness...
sigh,sigh,sigh and sigh...

I'm thirteen now
and don't know
how my friends could be so mean
i come home crying and you hold me tight
and grab the keys..
and we drive and drive until we found ourselves far enough away..
and we talked in a window shop till i forgot
all their names..
based on taylor swift's The Best Day
it kinda suits my situation..==..don't you think?

i just wanna say..i had the best days with you guys..
bye forever...
*sigh