I didn't sleep at all last night.
I cried all night.
My eyes hurt.
I dunno whether to accept him.
I hate you,
but love you at the same time.
I don't know whether i want to see you anymore.
I don't want to go to school anymore.
I hate my life.
I'm tired of it.
But i'll still wait.
Although i'm not sure whether u'll change ur feelings again,
but i will wait.
Until f5, u said that. A promise is a promise.
Even though u broke the promise,
I'll keep MY promise.
tHAT'S all.
Byee. =(
Friday, April 16, 2010
It doesn't matter anymore.
You've broke all your promises.
You've broke my heart.
You destroyed everything.
You destroyed my world.
but, in the end?
I still love you.
WHY?!!
I hate you!! I hate you for making me love you!! I hate you for making me hurt so bad! I hate you for making me worry all the time !! I hate you because you're such a coward!! I HATE YOU!
I know i promised to be a brave girl, but i won't promise that i won't be sad. So i'll just cry, and let it all pass. Just like you said, but in the end, I know, what we had, you never really cared right? If you did, text me and say you DID!
You've broke all your promises.
You've broke my heart.
You destroyed everything.
You destroyed my world.
but, in the end?
I still love you.
WHY?!!
I hate you!! I hate you for making me love you!! I hate you for making me hurt so bad! I hate you for making me worry all the time !! I hate you because you're such a coward!! I HATE YOU!
I know i promised to be a brave girl, but i won't promise that i won't be sad. So i'll just cry, and let it all pass. Just like you said, but in the end, I know, what we had, you never really cared right? If you did, text me and say you DID!
Another day when i couldn't hold my tears any longer.
Its been 5 months hasn't it? Well, nearly. Time does pass faster than we think. I'm fine ,really. Ten chin-ups and i'll be good as new wouldn't I? I did try, just somehow, imprinting and liking or loving is not the same. Now i know.
And i thought, 3 years more, that's easy. But i didn't think about you didn't i? Yeah, i have to admit, i did think about the future with you. I know it sounds stupid. But, yeah. If you are reading this, please note, i'm not trying to make you feel guilty. Its a free country. I don't blame you. I'm not the only girl in the world, and i'm not even 1/1000000 of all the beautiful girls. That's why i don't have the potential to make you stay.
I'm just an ordinary girl, i'm not pretty and i'm pessimistic. You can know it from the statement i made before the fact that i said i'm pessimistic. LOL. Okay, i fell in love with someone. And i don't wish it to end happily ever after, because i hope it wouldn't end. LOL. I didn't know falling in love was such a hard thing. That is, when things start to go wrong and both begins to fight. It was like a fairy tale at first, but when it gets to the ending, its like you wish you never fell in love before. From this, i learnt a lesson. Guys are seriously never trustworthy. No offence to all the guys but, this is my lesson.
Did you know when you told me you had something to say, I got ready for it. I knew this was coming, but i just didn't want to accept it. And when you finally said those words, i felt as if my world had been torn apart. Half of me wanted to beg you so that we could start all over again, half of me felt like just dropping dead. I don't wanna do stupid stuff that would hurt my family or friends, that's why. But of course, you're afraid, now i realized. I finally realized what bothered you the most. ME. Isn't it? Don't waste my time? I never thought this was called wasting time. Suddenly don't feel like replying? Whoaa. YOu caught me. Would your friends come and find me if i said no more feel ? I don't know. Its up to them. But i hope they wouldn't.
I don't know who invented broke up. I don't know who invented crying. I don't know, who invented LOVE. But that's the point isn't it, without love, this world is nothing. Without love, there wuoldn't be happiness. Without happiness, there wouldn't be fun or laughter. So in whatever we do, there's love. But i wish that, no matter how, if u have met ur MRS RIGHT, i hope you will be happy. =) and you'll treat her well. And, you know,although you're imperfect, that's what makes you perfect. And, try not be so blunt next time. You'll hurt the ppl you love, or the ppl who loves you. I realized i loved you alot, maybe even more than my life, and i even thought the future with you. Kinda ironic when i think back. But, there's no point in going back right? I never wanted a relationship with you, really. Its actually you, but, its nobody's fault now. So, no point accusing.
Just remember, when you feel so tired in life, don't forget i love you. Now and always. No matter is it in friendship or real love. When you feel like nobody loves you, think of me. =) just one favour, pls let me see you smile. That's all i need. =) anyway, byee. I'll just be, a normal me again. i guess.
And i thought, 3 years more, that's easy. But i didn't think about you didn't i? Yeah, i have to admit, i did think about the future with you. I know it sounds stupid. But, yeah. If you are reading this, please note, i'm not trying to make you feel guilty. Its a free country. I don't blame you. I'm not the only girl in the world, and i'm not even 1/1000000 of all the beautiful girls. That's why i don't have the potential to make you stay.
I'm just an ordinary girl, i'm not pretty and i'm pessimistic. You can know it from the statement i made before the fact that i said i'm pessimistic. LOL. Okay, i fell in love with someone. And i don't wish it to end happily ever after, because i hope it wouldn't end. LOL. I didn't know falling in love was such a hard thing. That is, when things start to go wrong and both begins to fight. It was like a fairy tale at first, but when it gets to the ending, its like you wish you never fell in love before. From this, i learnt a lesson. Guys are seriously never trustworthy. No offence to all the guys but, this is my lesson.
Did you know when you told me you had something to say, I got ready for it. I knew this was coming, but i just didn't want to accept it. And when you finally said those words, i felt as if my world had been torn apart. Half of me wanted to beg you so that we could start all over again, half of me felt like just dropping dead. I don't wanna do stupid stuff that would hurt my family or friends, that's why. But of course, you're afraid, now i realized. I finally realized what bothered you the most. ME. Isn't it? Don't waste my time? I never thought this was called wasting time. Suddenly don't feel like replying? Whoaa. YOu caught me. Would your friends come and find me if i said no more feel ? I don't know. Its up to them. But i hope they wouldn't.
I don't know who invented broke up. I don't know who invented crying. I don't know, who invented LOVE. But that's the point isn't it, without love, this world is nothing. Without love, there wuoldn't be happiness. Without happiness, there wouldn't be fun or laughter. So in whatever we do, there's love. But i wish that, no matter how, if u have met ur MRS RIGHT, i hope you will be happy. =) and you'll treat her well. And, you know,although you're imperfect, that's what makes you perfect. And, try not be so blunt next time. You'll hurt the ppl you love, or the ppl who loves you. I realized i loved you alot, maybe even more than my life, and i even thought the future with you. Kinda ironic when i think back. But, there's no point in going back right? I never wanted a relationship with you, really. Its actually you, but, its nobody's fault now. So, no point accusing.
Just remember, when you feel so tired in life, don't forget i love you. Now and always. No matter is it in friendship or real love. When you feel like nobody loves you, think of me. =) just one favour, pls let me see you smile. That's all i need. =) anyway, byee. I'll just be, a normal me again. i guess.
Remember, I Love You.
No matter what.
Now and Always.
=)
Smile Joan,
Its gonna be okay.=)
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