21st of Dec : A letter to OPO ♥

Cute right? Come to think of it, this looks a bit like you. XD well, except for the ribbon.

Dear OPO , just got your message through windows live messenger. I must be looking like an idiot now who keeps smiling. I think i'm gonna have a crack on the side of my mouth XD haha. Anyway, hope you're fine there. The weather's quite cold here, (YA, i know, in MALAYSIA, cold?! *freaky* XP) so i'm wondering whether you're hugging yourself for warmth there. Haha. If not enough, there's actually some here. XD

So anyway i was going to blog about what happened today. Not much actually, just that my friend came over and we did log files together. Haha, yea i'm still doing log files. Swtz right? And yea laughed a lot, i even forgotten bout you for quite a moment. XP just kidding . Just sometimes i need something to take you off my mind. LOL. but overall, i'm fine. It's like living my everyday life.

Then i watched the korean drama. Yea, i nearly died of excitement. haha. Shinwoo is... Haiz. Really good LOL. So that's all , for now. Nothing exciting ever happens here. T.T too bad huh?

Am starting to count down. X) So, hope you're having fun there. ;D miss you.

joan (;

20th of Dec : A letter to OPO ♥

Dear OPO, its been quite a fun day today. I couldn't get use to you NOT texting me in the morning, which i suppose became a habit for me to keep checking my darn phone. And then it strucked me that you were never going to text me. Only then, i tossed my phone somewhere else. Where, i'm not quite sure yet. But, it may probably turn up whenever someone calls. Right now, i'm too lazy to even go find for it.

Hmm starting off with morning, i woke up quite early. Perhaps around 7? Was it? I'm not quite sure. Well, i woke up that early because the youths are coming over to my place to play basketball and swim. I don't suppose you know them, so i'll skip the introductions. Anyway, we played basketball and halfway resting , i couldn't help thinking bout you. And i suppose its because i wasn't doing anything. So i got up, and joined them again. It didn't exactly work, but i suppose better than nothing. Isn't it? Okay, i really had fun today ;D So you don't need to worry. I'm perfectly fine ;)

After that , we went to MAMAK stall to eat. I think my sister suggested that we go the restaurants near our school. =.=" you know what? There's a mamak just along my place and we're going that far . Yea, i suppose she lost it. BIG TIME. TEEHEE XD anyway, we ordered the food and it took more than ... what, 10 minutes? for the guy to get our order right. But, guess what? He still got one wrong. =.=" i ordered my roti canai but it never came. T.T so i was left with ... well. NASI LEMAK. UGH.

So after that, i think all of us ate already so perhaps we become comfortable and all of us got dilemma. Well, maybe some. Because we were deciding to whether swim or NOT swim. Because the pool was dirty, so we went to the other condo there to swim. =.=" And anyway, i swam today. LOL. And while i was in the water, (because there was a case that a kid drowned in the pool)so i was thinking, how come he drowned and loads of other stuff. Which made me thought of you. AGAIN. You don't know how to swim. LOL. But, oh well, nevermind.

So then it rained. And we had to go up. Okay, then we went to my house, had a hot milo and they went. And then something happened (if you wanna know. remind me to tell you bout it) and then i was too tired so i slept. So that's bout it. At night, i'm gonna watch the drama. *screams and faints* ;) haha. I hope you're having fun there, OPO. And i miss you a lot.

I love you , OPO ♥

joan

Speak Now. ♥

*screams and faints* ;)

Ain't she pretty? XD except for her outfit. LOL!

Well, some of you know that my BFF's got me Taylor Swift's album. *jumps up and down, screams and faints* Phew, do not worry. I am fine. Anyway, found this... Prologue, she wrote. Wonderful, absolutely inspiring i see. Boy, is she talented! She sings awesome songs, has awesome voice, writes awesome songs, and is so breathtakingly beautiful. ;D Sigh.

Anyway, will just type it to let you guys read bout it. Really good. I salute her. *SALUTE* TEEHEE!

"Speak now or forever hold your peace," the words said by the preachers at the end of wedding ceremonies all over the world, right before the vows. It's a last chance for protest, and a moment I've always been strangely fascinated by. So many fantasize about bursting into a church, saying what they'd kept inside for years like in the movies. In real life, it rarely happens.

Real life is a funny thing you know. In real life, saying the right thing at the right moment is beyond crucial. So crucial, in fact, the most of us start to hesitate, for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. But lately what I've begun to fear more than that is letting the moment pass without saying anything.

I think most of us fear reaching the end of our life, and looking back regretting the moments we didn't speak up. When we didn't say 'I love you'. When we should've said 'I'm sorry', When we didn't stand up for ourselves or someone who needed help.

These songs are made up of words I didn't say when the moment was right in front of me. These songs are open letters. Each is written with a specific person in mind telling them what i meant to tell them in person. To the beautiful boy whose heart i broke in December. To my first love who i never thought would be my first heartbreak. To my band. To a mean man I used to be afraid of. To someone who made my world very dark for awhile. To a girl who stole something of mine. To someone I forgive for what he said in front of the whole world.

Words can break someone into a million pieces, but they can also put them back together. I hope you use yours for good., because the only words you'll regret more than the ones left unsaid are the ones you use to intentionally hurt someone.

What you say might be too much for some people. Maybe it will come out all wrong and you'll stutter and you'll walk away embarrassed, wincing as you play it all back in your head. But I think the words you stop yourself from saying are the ones that will haunt you the longest.

So say it to them. Or say it to yourself in the mirror. Say it in a letter you'll never send or in a book millions might read someday. I think you deserve to look back on your life without a chorus of resounding voices saying ''I could've, but its too late now. "

There is a time for silence. There is a time for waiting your turn. But if you know how you feel, and you clearly know what you need to say, you'll know it.

I don't think you should wait. I think you should SPEAK NOW.

PS : To all the boys who inspired this album,

you should've known. ;)

love,

Taylor

Taylor Swift's songs are what every girl wants to say.♥

29.11.2010 ♥

This picture means a lot to me. ;)

Okay, so according to the title above, hmm... Its MOI birthday. (; ahaha. Well, in the morning it was kinda busy for me, i went to this singapore girl guides interact event. Hmm, quite interesting, we learnt how to dance indian dance. XD haha. Tres interesting.

Okay, went back home and went to bathe. Blah blah blah. And then, planned to watch "Dear John". But my sis ''prohibited'' me from watching. XD I was real mad that time, but now i know why. XD haaha. Next, went on facebook, syok-ing sendiri halfway. My mom wanted me to take something from her car. GAHH!! =.=" I was so annoyed. Mor eannoyed when my sis took her own sweet time. P/s:i wanted to get back to facebook ASAP! XD

And so, we ended up "visiting" all the floors. =.=" Sicko people right? I know, trust my sis to do that. Hrr. So in the end we reached ground floor. LOL. And when i went out, everyone (melanie, cheeching,phuiyeng,siaosuan,sweelynn,karhoe,yuesum,nicholas and yinglee) jumped out and shouted happy birthday.LOL! I really was stunned. LOL. so anyway, we ended up fooling around. LOL. We played uno only. And just fool around. LOL. =.="

Anyway, really want to thank all o fmy BFFLs again. Honestly, maybe nick, you think its not really good, but i want you guys to know, the hard work you guys put in were all written all over your faces. ;) All over your pretty and handsome faces. XD

Okay, dad's lecturing me to get off the comp already. Once again, thank you my BFFs. Love you guys. ♥

The true battle is in yourself, not with others.

Well peeps. the picture i took above was at the Kelana Jaya Yamaha Music Centre. Yes, you might be wondering what the hell am i doing there huh? Well, i went for a competition. Details, i'm too lazy for that. Have i mentioned that LAZY is my 3rd middle name? ;D i guess not. So now you know. Anyway, results? I didn't get in the final round. But its really okay for me. I probably got ready for that before the competition. Well, i must say i was pretty proud of myself for doing quite a good job, LOL. Because i think i finally conquered my stage fright. Its true, i'm not afraid of doing anything now. Okay, maybe SOME but not the minor ones. But anyway, its an achievement. And it tastes, SU-WEEEET baby! ;D

Anyway, due to the fact that my school is on holiday and i don't need to go to school on thursday, which gave me the PURR-FECT, opportunity, to go back to my primary school. And the school certaintly changed a lot. Tres interesting if i may say. But, anyway, my main goal was to go back to school to .... COLLECT JUNKFOOD! ;D oh c'mon, i'm sure everyone would like some junkfood now and then. Even my mom, who's kind of a health-freak, asks me to pop one into her mouth, but then, she'll give me the *YUCKS* look. OH man, she just wasted one of my favourite CHEEZELS. T.T yup, you bet i am pretty miserable over that. (music please!)*i am in misery,there ain't nobody who can comfort me, oh yeah!* =.=" okay. overdose of junkfoods i guess! Hmm, nothing much , just took some pictures of the small kids performing, they look, slightly like nick, except, he's UGLY but adorable, whereas the kids look, well... just, ADORABLE. ;D

this, well... I don't know what the hell are they doing.

err... fan dance? LOL!

Diabolo! they did a very good job. LOL!

Hip Hop club, BAD ROMANCE. =.= err.... as min yu would say, SO-SO la. XD

The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.

Isn't it beautiful? I wish i was this pretty, LOL.

Phew! Nearly 3 weeks of exams certainly has tired all of us out. All of us look like pandaS when we went to school. AHA! A new name for Sri Sentosa, The School For PandaS! Its not really a bad thing, it means the students study hard until they gave up their beauty, especially the girls! A girl needs her beauty sleep. Ahaha. Nah, just fooling 'round.

Anyway, i felt like blogging 'cuz, i was feeling really bad. Yue Sum told me something and i was really bothered 'bout it. I know i shouldn't be worried bout it. It's the past, c'mon! I know, but i'm really gonna have a nervous breakdown next time. Gosh. I feel like its the end of the world. I hate that person. I really don't know how to face people next year. I have my rights! That bastard!=.=

Gahh.

Like my title, sometimes i thought about forgiving everyone that's offended me. But, sometimes, when you come to think of it, some people call you some really bad words, and say they dont mean it. I mean, how can you call someone a SH and say you dont mean it. That's redonkulous! =.= But maybe i really should learn to let go. Maybe i'll be a happier person this way. Maybe everything will turn out right when you're forgiving, because, maybe you changed your point of view. Sometimes, i find for the real me. Who I really am, but i never found Joan Chia, I don't even know who i am anymore. I just wanna be a normal girl. That's all.

Forgiving is not a gift to someone else - Forgiving is your gift to yourself - a great gift - the gift of happiness.

You Are What You Make Of Yourself.

Life is full of colours. You have your pick of M&Ns. ;D

Actually, I meant to write this for my friend. LOL.

Hey, um... i know lately you are kinda relying on someone. And i really want you to know that he's a good guy. You know who i'm talking about. I know, that's he has touched your wounds inside. I've noticed that whenever you talk about him, you always smile, i'm happy for you. And yeah, i know you don't want anybody to get hurt anymore. You're a kind girl, you'd rather you get hurt yourself and you don't want anybody getting hurt because of you. But that's just it, you can't make it that way. And i can see that you're stuggling. You are touched by him, but you're afraid. I know how you feel. You don't want a relationship, but you want him to stand by your side, be with you through your ups and downs, support you in everything you do, and.... feeling all protective around you. I know, i understand. Okay, maybe not very precise, but... still, we're both girls, we know how a girl feels right? And i know that's what he feels for you. I'm not asking you to accept him, and i know, you wanna focus, i'm just telling you to take it easy. Not easy, i know. LOL. anyway, he might always wait for you, then again, he might not. But, just so you know, i will always love you, even though we've only known each other for like... what? One year? And i really think God forgotten to give you as my sibling, so he sent you as my best friend instead. XD Love ya.

I know,

.

That's my point.