What A Day.

Geez guys. Something went very wrong today. I'm really pissed off at everything . To start , my shoes. The whole freaking day my shoes was wet , and i was like , trying to chill. But in the end, some idiots who actually "STIMULATED" my anger, got the best of me.

To her , so what? You're not trying to hide ? Find someone ? Please , why don't you just tell me that you're gonna talk to that person ? I don't care, and i'm sorry if I was pulling you away , cuz.. well , cuz i thought maybe you would want to avoid some stuffs. Well , i guess i don't know you so well like i thought . You might as well spill it all out and get it over, done with. Because, hey.. Its not like i'll die. I could have saved myself from all the trouble from racking my brain to think of the best way or solution. But if you don't want , that's totally fine with me, i'm totally absolutely fine with it. You can go and be with him for all I care. You know? Pfft. But instead what did you do? You ran over , and i was shouting to you like someone who lost her mind to come back. You know , you could at least tell me so I won't make a fool out of myself. Like i said, its your life. You can honestly do whatever you want , and i won't stop you. Cuz you know what? Now i know that perhaps i wasn't always first . Which proved it today. During this incident. DO you know, how much pain it was? Did you know, i had to keep my jaws together to prevent myself from crying? DID you know , that i had to bear that unworthy person's glare? If i did not bear it, i would have dug out his eyes. DID YOU EVEN KNOW THIS? you don't , do you? Does the word sister even mean anything to you? No, scratch that, I should say, FRIEND. Does it? I can just say , i'm totally disappointed in your behaviour today. You still ask me to not get so worked up? Try having this, and let's see who's patience is better.

To another one, i don't have the right to say anything, i know. I totally get it, and i won't say anything sensitive. But i'll just say this, if you think that the other group is better, go on. I don't mind. I don't want you to think us as your burden. I didn't even know you had a blog, you never even told me. And you thank some people whom you barely know, whereas you've know us for at least 1 year, and you didn't even mention us. Fine , i admit, we're not as cool as them, we're those goody goody who only study and talk about books, yeah, at least its better than wasting time on things that can't help you at all. You know what? I really hope that you could at least tell me or us, about whatever you haven't told us. Or you can choose to keep a secret forever, but nothing on earth stays a secret forever.

When I needed you most when I needed a friend, you let me down now

Friendship is delicate as a glass, once broken it can be fixed but there will always be cracks

Sunday School

Okay okay, perhaps there will be something interesting for this post. Cuz i just came back from church , and during sunday school , a couple of hilarious incidents happened. Okay , today's topic was about DREAMS AND DECISIONS and HAPPINESS.

Life can be exciting. Sometimes it seems as if we are changing and growing not only from day to day but also from seconds to seconds. Our dreams for the future may change just as fast. Whether we realize it or not , we are making many decisions about our lives each day, These choices can spell the difference between success and failure in life, right? I , for one , when i was a little girl , i used to dream that i could be one of the princess in those fairy tales , i bet all girls have thought about being princess right? And your prince charming would come and take you by the hand and lead you dancing in the woods. *gazes off dreamily... and snaps back to life.* Okay! FOCUS. erm.. where were we? Oh right, princesses. Well , here 's the real world isn't it? There aren't anything like these , the categories should give us the idea right? FAIRY TALES, and fairy tales DO NOT exist. Teacher Anne told us she used to wish she could own a chocolate factory when she was a little girl too. Yeah , i did have that dream too , that is , after watching Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. haha. (;

Okay , moving on to the topic of HAPPINESS , the teacher assigned us to write out 3 things that make us happy , wanna know mine? Travelling , reading and spending time with my love ones . One of the boys in my class said , he wished he could have an interview with the Holland striker (he mentioned the name , but i didn't catch what he said ). Another guy who was kind plump said , eating makes him happy. haha , he lives to eat . That's really one of the best. haha. Now , explain your understanding of happiness. Are you thinking?? It really is hard isn't it? So when teacher asked me , i just shrugged. Because i 'm not sure what would be the best answer. The teacher moved on and asked everyone what is their understanding of happiness , one answered be happy with your life and just live life to the fullest . Now , teacher told us her definition of happiness . Its being in the right relationship with Jesus and doing what God wants us to do. Perhaps i'm not mature enough , but i don't understand this statement. Oh well , i suppose i'll understand it sooner or later.

Anyway , the whole afternoon i was having guitar class , and whoaa. the tips of my finger is numb now. Honestly, i do envy those people who could play the guitar and they're totally indulged in the music , so.. in order to reach my goal , i have to keep holding on. *play avril lavigne's KEEP HOLDING ON * LOL. haha. anyway, that's all folks. (; love youu people. CHEERS! ♥

Speechless over the edge and just Breathless

hey people, I know i know. Please forgive me if my posts have been absolutely bored and you haven't even got to the second line you're yawning your head off . Well , i sincerely hope that your head hasn't dropped if not that would be like... whoaa. *rolls eyes.* Swtz. Okay okay. Um... so what would you guys like me to talk about? What a stupid question huh?? Well, i'm just gonna... tell you about what happened lately.

Friday

I went to attend the debate competition. Do not get the wrong idea, i'm not competing, i'm just one of the audience. And yeah, although there are quite a few weird parts in the debate, overall.. its actually quite good. They've got the points, and stuffs. But i'm not sure that they have the confidence to present it. Anyway, congrats to the winning group. And i wasn't feeling exactly awesome that day , and one of the pelajar got on my nerves. Geez , i didn't want to be so harsh, but trust me, you got yourself into deep shit. Anyway, who cares about that pelajar. Moving on , when i went to practice my elocution , saw him, and i slipped and bit my own tongue. Gosh. Went to see him during recess. That's about it.

Just went to view sweelynn's blog. Seems like she'd let go too. Yinglee and she had let go. I'm the only one left, i thought very long about it , its not a matter about whether i WANT or not , its a matter about me clinging on to the past , i may be stubborn at times like i said , and sometimes i feel like , i can't let go . But sometimes, i feel like, the time has come, it is indeed time to put him down and move on. But i can't, i honestly can't. If i can't see him one day in school , i don't feel ...right. Waiting for his msgs until my heart aches so much makes me insane. I hope you know what you want , because things are getting out of hand. I'm falling for you all over again. ;(((

Baby tell me you love me. ♥

0701 -Today.

Okay, today nothing interesting happened. Except when i went to school to do the Star Magazine this morning , I think Yinglee either got up on the wrong side of the bed , or she just went mad. haha. You know what guys? OUr magazine wasn't exactly a magazine, it was more like a folio-type magazine. And we were like, "wey , very k yeng lor".... and then, all of us will think, "nevermind, as long as we submit it in, we get pizza voucher. " so all of us were like PIZZA PIZZA PIZZA PIZZA. LOL.

And then, the prefects had to take our lembaga picture, so we queue up according to our heights and got ready. And seriously, i don't know why the hell they need so long to take larh, i'm becoming burnt larh . LOL. SO me and nicol lor were like, hey guys! why are we waiting? Yo, man. I don't fancy the thought of dying so fast larh. So after taking finish.... pretty much nothing happened.

Oh yea, when we went back class and we had KH with 2a12, so i sat with phuiyeng, yinglee sat with soon chern in front.OMG. Something damn funny happened. I don't know how to put it. If you wanna know, ask me directly. I'll tell you.

Yeah, honestly nothing funny happened except that we told each other horror stories which freaked yinglee out so much that she had to shout everytime. =.= Gosh. I nearly burst out laughing la. I'm not trying to be 幸灾乐祸，but seriously, now i know her weakness. Muahaha! LOL.

Okay , erm.. i think that's all. Its just a lame post, cuz i'm feeling bored now. LOL .

Oh darling i wish you were here. ♥

0625 ♥

sweelynn, i love you . Best friends for life. I promise you this. (; ♥

Although its not exactly sweelynn's birthday, but we had a pre-celebration for her at pizza hut. ♥ muaks i love you sweelynn. You know you're very important in my heart.

Okay, so after school, we walked to pizza hut. On the way, we were practically laughing our heads off about things. And then, we ordered and did some things like camwhore and stuffs. Haha. This is the first time i really laughed so much and took so much pics. Thanks to sweelynn.

Sweelynn, there are some things that i would like to tell you. I mean, i don't know how awkward it will be, but i still wanna say. You know, you really are my best friend. You know me like your own hand. You know what i think and you always say it out. Which pisses me off. Sometimes. haha. (; but i honestly love you. Muaks. ♥

You know, i really think that you are someone sent down from God. Or perhaps you are suppose to be my sister that God forgot to give me. Ahh, my long lost sister. (; ILY.

Hey guys , so sorry that i haven't been able to update my baby blog. Why? Because i've been occupied these few days. By?? moi teevee and moi comp, and i've been busy swimming too. doing some work out. Cool eh? LOL. and, i've also spent my few nights sleeping at 2 o'clock in the morning. hehe, as for the reason, you don't need to know. (; ♥

Lately, i feel so alive again, do you know what am i talking about? If you don't , nevermind . I'll tell u the feeling. Um.. have you ever felt like, well, something really bad happened, and then, because of something that happened which is totally awesome, you feel that happy flying feeling? I'm really feeling that now, i've got my pals, i've got him (as a really good friend), and everything seems to be going perfectly, like everything you ever wanted. Felt it before? Yea? Feels good right? No? Oh too bad, but not to worry, you'll be able to have a taste of it sooner or later. (;

Oh gosh, things are really getting out of hand now. 爱情不能用谎话来解决.i learnt this lately. but i'll try to make things better. anyway, gotta go now. Goodbye! (; ♥

8th of June - a memorable day (PERHAPS?)

Okay, i was out all day. I mean, i went out in the morning at 10 something by sweelynn's car, and came back around 5 something. Well, i went to celebrate my senior's birthday at times square with sweelynn, keeseong ,desmond junweng and a guy named kok poh( i think? and i didn't tlak to him for the whole day). Yeah, well. Um.. so then when me and sweelynn reached, we sorta went every floor to find McDonalds cuz they said they would meet us there, well, i'm a ''road nerd'', so i wouldn't know where it is, nor how to read the map. But, luckily i had sweelynn, if not i am so dead. =.= Okay, so when we wanted to reach there, i suddenly asked sweelynn, "Eh, i....look okay right?" okay, yeah i admit i am kinda nervous (so what?-,-)cuz this is the first time going out with... well, guys. LOL. Okay so cut the crap, we went to buy tickets first (sweelynn and i didn't know what movie we were watching and we didn't even ask cuz we were scared they would ask us to choose) LOL. and yeah, so we bought the tickets and went to the karaoke place. LOL. at first i was like, hesitating and asking myself, do i really wanna go in and sing? and then, because of something, i was like, nah.. i don't think so. and then they were like, what? we bought the tickets so.. okay fine just go in larh. And its like we're walking in the maze, omg.. its really a wonder i didn't get lost. LOL. then , we went into a room, and then um.. sing la. I didn't really sing a lot, (cuz my singing is bad) LOL. and so... we did everything , sing talk laugh whatever.

Next , we went to those .. dunno how to say those places, LOL. Its like those games place la, i've always wanted to go in since i was small but my mom and dad were always lying to me saying there are bad people inside, which made me terrified. LOL but not now la. So i went in and played the shooting baskets game, damn fun man. But there is something damn funny, the first ball i shoot, its bounced out of it and flew out, and junweng was standing behind me gawking. LOL omg..i nearly snorted. LOL. but, well, my attire did not suite well with snorting, so yeah. =.= what am i wearing? U get the picture. GAHH. =.= And then, sweelynn wanted to play the sweet thingy, i didn't want to. So i THINK keeseong gave her some tokens and she grabbed the sweets. O.o * are you thinking what i'm thinking? yeah! high 5. shh~* LOL =.= then we went out and i bought cotton candy, (i know! my dream came true!! i mean, i've been wanting to eat it for such a long time) LOL. and then,bought it, i had trouble opening it, in the end, we had to ask the guys help, so embarassing la. =.= and then we went to watch SHREK FOREVER AFTER. Comments? Not a bad movie, great graphic design and all those larh. And yeah, when we came out, we saw meishan , siew mun, and karmen, and we were like, HEY YOU WATCHED THAT TOO? bla bla bla... and i think they saw who's behind us and they just.... sorta took off and ran. LOL. =.= and then, we went to the toilets(sweelynn)=.= and then when we came out, i realized we were short of someone, YAP JUNWENG. why arh? he always run off dunno where. =.= GAHH. and then we were all like, hey where is he where is he? Call lorh. Then we went into BORDERS (yesh! paradise! -,-) . I looked up some books there, and the guys were like, looking back, "??? where are they?? YOR." and then came back for us. LOL. -,- sorry la, the books goda me. =.=

So anyway, after movie we went..... oh yeah, actually we wanted to go bowling and stuffs, then sweelynn's mother came, so went home, when we were walking down, the boys were behind us too, and me and sweelynn were like, err... why arh? but we didn't care la. And then, we got lost, so in the end we asked the boys, and i think they wanted to go the same way as us, so...yeah. we all went together, and then bye bye. LOL chat through sms with someone for a while.. umm.. yeah, That's about it. so... really, i had an awesome time, i mean like, this time all us shy marh, haven't warm up, and when we were about to warm up, its time to go. SO yeah, if there is a next time all of us know how to do already. LOL .

um.. lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY karseng.
the most original wish?

HAIRPEE BURBDAY. (;

LOL