I'm so sick of love songs.

Hey guys, its the first day of the hols. Let's partayy! LOL. Nah i'm just kidding. But, hey actually we can, its just that we need the people and the crowds. That's when the party is starting to heat up. YEAH! Okay, please ignore my hyperness or high-ness. You can't really help feeling excited when the holidays have come, right? Well, i'm not really excited. I seriously do not know what i'm saying now. GOSH. I've lost MOI mind. *faints.

I mean, can you imagine two whole weeks not seeing...?? I can't. The thirst for him is just so... Sigh. I don't know what word is best used to describe my feeling. So anyway, i'm gonna brief you guys about what happened on friday.

Friday....
Prefects had a V.I.M( very important meeting la!)=.= All of us, seem to know that the atmosphere was suppose to be very serious so our expressions were all very serious too. (*snort. YEAH RIGHT)And as we took our seats gracefully, (actually, we were sitting on the floor, and not-so-gracefully) all of us could hear how fast the pulse is running in each others veins(actually, we can't hear at all, we were busy chit-chatting about who's gonna get pecat,LOL) . And then, our head prefect gave a wonderful speech that touched all our hearts(more like scolding that BROKE our hearts, LOL!! JUst kidding)and he said, he was very proud of us, of what we did, we did our jobs wonderfully( technically, he said, he was VERY DISAPPOINTED at what we did, we did not carry out our duties at all). Next, he wanted to check all our stuff in our pockets, and when he saw what we had in our pockets, he was shocked to see that all of us brought everything. (no, actually he was kinda surprised that all of us DID NOT bring the things we were required to bring). And then he said, all of us may go back to our seats, ( NO. He did not say this, he said, who didn't bring anything, dendaan fizikal) and all of us went down and sat down gracefully again( actually, we had to do 20 times up and downs because we did not carry out our duties, 10 times for not bringing any stuff, i did 30 times. so you can guess i did not bring 3 things, BUMMER!and we sure as hell did not sit down gracefully, cuz when we finished, all of us were moaning=.=)and then the other AJKs gave their speech(aka SCOLDING or WARNING). And we gave them a round of applause(no, some of them were giving them the silent treatment, not me, i'm a guide, we do this all the time, easy peasy.LOL)And that was the end. I turned my head and saw the morning session prefects were getting ready to board the bus(technially, i was straining my neck to see if i could get a glimpse of him) and then i saw him( NO I DID NOT-,-) and later, i took a stroll with ah bock, admiring the beautiful scene of our beloved school( more like rushing though everybody and not even taking a glance at our surroundings) i don't know why they are running( SURE AS HELL I DO) and then i saw him. (yeah, it was kinda dramatic scene cuz ah bock was singing [more like screaming=.=and i was staring up at him too. GAHH]) and then we walked off( yeah we did , i don't think i can bear to see him going off)

So that's all. BYee (;

If you're sorry, leave me alone.

Gosh its been really hectic these few days. I never got the time to slow down, sit down and take deep breaths. Its always rushing here and there like we're making preparations for world end (LOL, TOUCHWOOD! * runs off and touch a wood *) LOL. These few days i'm really starting to feel semangat a bit larh. Don't ask me why, cuz i ain't gonna tell you why. Cuz i sendiri pun tak tahu. :X

Okay, tell you guys something tres funny. Yesterday my sis was packing her luggage as she is going to a prefect kursus today. So when we were eating dinner, my sis got a phone call, it was from her friend (i don't wanna mention name, LOL) and then i heard her ask my sis, what kind of bag is my sis bringing. so my sis say, she's bringingthose like hand carry de la. Then suddenly my sis laugh, then i look up, and heard my sis say, err..you mean your luggage 50 cm long or bla bla bla something like that la, then my mom put down her chopsticks and ask me,"tomorrow they are going by airplane arh? why need to measure ? " Then i laugh and nearly spit out my soup. LMAO. Then i told my mom, " the last time i checked, they are going by bus." then we continue eating. OMG.so damn freaking funny that time. LOL.

Um, i'll just brief you guys on what i ddi yesterday. Well, i came home from school, bathe, ate, watch tv, and just keep on sms-ing with... LOL. =.= Yeap. VERY. LOL . i didn't study at all. So i didn't study yesterday, i gotta study now. BYEE. =)

I wish that life is like drawing, when you go wrong, you can just rub it off.

Have you guys ever felt tired of life? Lately, i'm beginning to get tired of it. I wish that life was like when everything goes wrong you can just delete it. I can't really be happy of everything. I'm trying to change. Change myself for the better. But, its not possible right? Yeah...i know nothing is impossible but i really am so tired.

He is my first concern. I do not want anyone to start asking him any stupid questions about anything stupid. Just leave him alone, let it go guys. Its really isn't any your business, so just mind your own business, there's no way the truth will come out.

I think i've decided to live on life without him. I must try, without trying, i'll never know whether i can live on. But i know, choosing any road, it must start with this. Letting go of him. As usual, he's got a headstart before me again. I can't say that if he is happy, i'll be REALLY happy.I'll just be happy for him. But, whether i'll live down the regrets i don't know. I guess it all depends on me now right? He's moved on, i gotta move on too. I know, but why whenever i want to move on, something will come and stop me from moving on.

I shouldn't be focusing on these i know, studies comes first. I know, i know. I just, feel so bad inside whenever i see those couples. I try to smile like i don't give a damn of what's happening. But in the end, i'm just killing myself. Seeing him makes it so hard to breathe, thinking of him makes it so hard to focus.

Sometimes i think to myself, is it because i still believe i love him, and that's why i'm not letting go. Or is it because i really can't let him go? Which ever way, its killin' me. Everyday i see him, i try picturing some other girl beside him, but the thought of it makes me nauseus. It makes me feel so..... so.... jealous? I can't believe i'm finally feeling jealous. HAh, i'm honestly going mad.

Now playing Wedding Dress by Big Bang.

Goodbye EL 900

Hey guys, sorry i did not blog for such a long time. Pretty busy these days. And you know, my electone is gonna be trade in for a new one today. I need to let out my feelings so i decided to blog. Luckily when she's gonna be given out that i'm in school, then i wouldn't need to cry. But oh boy, sure as hell i'll miss her. She'd accompanied me through 2 heartbreaks before. Gosh, can you believe that i'm crying for something that is a non-living thing? I can't believe it too.

I only wish, whoever it was sold to, will treat it nicely. Treat her well, she's been a very good, no, scratch that, an AWESOME electone, the BEST ''non-living friend'' ever. YOu may ask, why don't i keep both of them, new and old, well, because its traded in. If i don't trade in, the price is about RM 47,500.(if i'm not mistaken)so when i trade in, its for like,around a few thousands, and then price is around 30,000 i think. Yeah...How many songs have i played on her before.. when i was feeling angry or emo or sad, she would ''listen''. Gosh, I'll really really really miss her like hell. Anyway, i gotta go now. Exam time. Byee. =(

Life after you

Ignore the title , i just heard this song on the radio and as i listened to the lyrics, i wonder if its similar as my situation. Hmm, perhaps a little. Another day has gone, i wonder if i ever crossed his mind. But then, it's not happening. Though my heart hurts whenever i thought of him, but apparently, this is the fact. This is reality, no matter how much i want my story to be a fairytale which are happy-ever-after-endings, this is the FACT. Perhaps it may be hard to get it into my mind, i'm still trying. I haven't succeeded, but maybe one day i will.

Sigh. I don't wanna be a heartbreaker, and i don't wanna hurt innocent guys. But i have to tell ''you'', because someone took my heart and won't give it back. Literally. So i can't really take your heart. I'm sorry. Sorry X1000000000 . I know maybe sorry is not enough for you. But i wouldn't say sorry if i didn't mean it. I honestly wanna focus on my studies. Yes, its true. Its not because of someone. It really is because of my studies. I don't wanna disappoint my parents anymore.

Okay, i'm sorry that nowadays my posts are weird and stuff. Sorry, its just that, nowadays i don't know why, getting nightmares are a must when i sleep. I always wake up in the middle of the night, sweating. Or i would wake up, crying in my sleep. OR, i would cry myself to sleep. Please do not ask me what's happening to myself. I don't know too, i don't want it to happen. Perhaps, i watch some disturbing movies that's all. Byee! =P

Crap post.

Hey peeps. Before you kill me for not updating my blog, lemme explain. Erh herm. Okay, ue to the fact that we're GONNA have exam, i'm studying hard cuz i DO NOT want to disappoint my parents anymore. So i've decided to turn over a new leaf. *nods head. Pretty good explanation huh? So now you're asking, why am i on the comp? Well, i got tired and wanted to have a GOOD rest. Makes sense? Yeah, it does huh?

So, i'm fine and well, don't ask anymore. Even though i'm not fine now, i WILL be. I'm just typing this short post, because, i don't have anything to say. so, byee~ =)

Photos. ♥

I'll let the pics do the talking. I'm honestly a lazy pig nowadays.


What am i writing?? blekk~


HAha~

=P hehe.

LOL! Don't understand?? Haha. Thought so.

This one, please i did not say nor do anything about it. After our prefects meeting, i saw this and took a pic of it. =.=

See?? A few of us were sitting on the floor not listening to ''someone''. LOL.

HAHA!! XD

Yinglee and me. I look weird. LOL.

AHHA!! My pandu juniors didenda. Muahaha!

Ji Qing and me.