Life after you

Ignore the title , i just heard this song on the radio and as i listened to the lyrics, i wonder if its similar as my situation. Hmm, perhaps a little. Another day has gone, i wonder if i ever crossed his mind. But then, it's not happening. Though my heart hurts whenever i thought of him, but apparently, this is the fact. This is reality, no matter how much i want my story to be a fairytale which are happy-ever-after-endings, this is the FACT. Perhaps it may be hard to get it into my mind, i'm still trying. I haven't succeeded, but maybe one day i will.

Sigh. I don't wanna be a heartbreaker, and i don't wanna hurt innocent guys. But i have to tell ''you'', because someone took my heart and won't give it back. Literally. So i can't really take your heart. I'm sorry. Sorry X1000000000 . I know maybe sorry is not enough for you. But i wouldn't say sorry if i didn't mean it. I honestly wanna focus on my studies. Yes, its true. Its not because of someone. It really is because of my studies. I don't wanna disappoint my parents anymore.

Okay, i'm sorry that nowadays my posts are weird and stuff. Sorry, its just that, nowadays i don't know why, getting nightmares are a must when i sleep. I always wake up in the middle of the night, sweating. Or i would wake up, crying in my sleep. OR, i would cry myself to sleep. Please do not ask me what's happening to myself. I don't know too, i don't want it to happen. Perhaps, i watch some disturbing movies that's all. Byee! =P