Eclipse ♥

Aww, ain't this sweet? (;

Hey peeps, if you were wondering if i had watched eclipse, nope i haven't, but i am going to tomorrow to watch with my besties. (; ahh.. i can't wait!! Itz juz tzoo exzaiding. Oh gosh, its so hard to speak in french accent. muahaha. Sigh people, its been quite an interesting week overall. I did some really unexpected things. Like.. oh well, you guys probably know. :D and these few days, i always went to sleep with a big smile on my face. ;) even though yesterday wasn't exactly one of the best days because it was parent's day and my mom was suppose to go and take my report card. But in the end, she didn't want to. She said she didn't want to go and be humiliated in front of people. GAhh. whatever. I am so freakin' tired and I do not want to give a damn bout it anymore because its killing me.

Anyway , i really would like to say again here, we're not that kind of relationship, plus studies come first. So..honestly guys, take a break , give US a break. We're just friends, walking together talking together, is that somethign so wrong and you guys have to go all, "WHOA, are you kidding me?" or " are you guys together?" or "hey, how long have you guys been together?" WHOA! Chill it people! you guys can't just simply assume something just because you saw something that might look like SOMETHING when its really not. =.= no, seriously guys, do not think anywhere further, but stop right at friends. Okay?? I knew you guys would listen to my explanation. Thank you thank you! ;P LOve youu people. haha. (;

Baby tell me what you waiting for. ;P

Hey peeps, i'm blogging....in school. AHA! Cool eh? Hmm...let's see..actually nothing interesting happened these few days. I mean , seriously , I think the world's running outta laughter. Haha. Anyway, since i'm here , i might as well blog about what happened yesterday.

Okay, people... see, during civic, we were on this topic about "warisan tradisional" or something about that. Yeah.. last week, we did tikar mengkuang...which was a total disaster because out beloved Nicholas Goh forgotten to inform us to bring colour paper. And the teacher was so demanding and she just said , "I tak kisah, i nak kamu buat, i nak kamu pass up hari ini, i nak... i nak...i tak kisah...". DENG. =.= Me and Yinglee were like..gosh-what-is-your-problem look. -,- So anyway, guess what we used to do the ultimate stupid tikar mengkuang?? Okayy, yinglee had a few pieces of colour paper, few, as in, TWO.=.= haha. so yeah.. we divided the piece of paper, and guess what ? we ran outta colour paper, so we used?? The Scholastic book list. OWhh.. brilliant aren't we ? XD. And yeah... so this week, the teacher brought in congkak for us. Whee~ not that fun. I mean, i play it all day long at home when i was small and now i have to play it again? Oh puh-lease. SO anyway, i could see that yinglee was kinda excited about it. She was like, hey i wanna play i wanna play! haha. and okay, i was versus-ing Jovyn that time. and she started first so she got a long time going round and round... and we were exchanging sarcastic words all the time. Like, when i want her to stop, i would say, hey, your luck is back. And then she would be so mad.. and everyone was like saying she's gonna win... and i just said simply, i win all the time. i should let people have a chance.. and Jovyn was like... SHUT UP YOU BITCH. ahaha. Gosh.. and when we were gonna play finish , i just said jokingly , " hey , winner takes it all . The winner keeps the game. Woohoo! Go Jovyn. Compliments from joan. " ahaha. Gosh. it was quite an interesting period aye? Phew. My neck is sore now.. cuz i'm not suppose to go online and BLOG , but to cari maklumat. And what does it have to do with the neck you ask? Cuz the teacher is sitting behind me, so i have to keep on looking if she's looking at what i'm doing . Ouch. The pain the pain!!! -,- LOL.

Hmm.. last night? Nah.. nothing happened. Just that i promised him i would see him after his school time and before my school time. Whee. Pretty cool plan huh? hehe . Yeah, you can bet.. i went to sleep with big smile on my face. (; gosh. things start going right now. I guess i have to thank God for making all of these come true. Without God, i would be totally useless. Or maybe, without God, i wouldn't exist. Oh yeah, yinglee was suppose to go to petroscience today until the first four period. But because soon chern wasn't going, so yinglee didn't want to go. Quite absurb if you ask me, i mean like, its such a good opportunity to go learn and play at the same time.. ponteng ma. YOR. and i've already got my " ponteng schedule" all plan. and what is my schedule? Every bell ring, i will go and see him. LOL. see? isn't that a wonderful opportunity? GAHH. So anyway people, i gotta go. Because i think i'm gonna be killed if the teacher finds out. haha. Byee peeps!

I need you now. ♥

I don't know what will happen if I trust you one more time. But I love you more than I did.

Hey peeps, kinda feeling a mixture of feelings now. Sad, angry, happy, perhaps even frustrated. Its all jumbled up and i'm feeling so tired of life. I mean, what's going on now. One part seems in place, him and me. ♥ But about my friendship , it doesn't seem to be getting better. I fight with my best friend all day long, and i'm tired and sick of it. I reckon its probably maybe I can't accept the stupid things that she's doing nowadays. Its just honestly, seriously, STUPID. If you ask me. Because you would not believe what she did if i told you. So i'm not gonna tell you. :X =.= It is absolutely the most absurd thing you will ever hear. =.=

Oh gosh. Everything seems to come so fast. I cannot believe that its been 3months since he told me that thing. And now, look. Its really unbelievable for me. I mean, i know for some people, you will say, he likes you,you like him. What's the problem ? Go for it guys! Okayy, lemme get this straight with you people, i mean, we're not that kind of relationship. Really. Just friends. Like more than best friends, sister brotherly love? Oh gosh . who am i trying to kid? =.= I can actually imagine you peoples' face, its like :" UH HUH. KEEP TALKING. BUT NO ONE IS GONNA BELIEVE YOU." =.= Sigh. I wish time could go back. I want to be in his arms again, i wanna know what's the feeling to fall in love again and again and again. Its just so electrifying everytime i see him. Its either my whole face goes red like its getting ready to explode, or i can feel the heat travelling through my body at the speed of light. =.=

To someone, I do love you, but I want you to know what you're getting yourself into. Because if i get hurt again, i don't think i'll survive it. I've ran out of tears. I can't do it anymore. And please, don't think too far. Think of the present. Thinking too far doesn't help the situation. All we have to do is just keep our minds close from anything-that-is-not-suitable-for-our-age, and do THOSE kind of things. Just.... stay by me. I want to remember your presence beside me, not to remember that you have once stood beside me. (; ILY OPO. do you know that? ;P perhaps you mean everything to me. Once more.

Weee~

Okay okay , people. I'm back yeah. Gosh, its been really hectic these days. What with the chinese elocution , pandu stuffs , and some relationship problems to take care of. Sigh . Lately, i've been thinking a lot. Seriously, it seems like everything i do is a matter between life or death. And I am so damn FREAKING tired of this. And really, i've noticed that one of my best friend is making the biggest mistake of her life. Literally. Not just one . It seems as if she's lost her common sense, so she's doing stupid things all the time. If she weren't my best friend, i would have killed her. =.=

Its not that i'm jealous that you got into a relationship again. Really . I mean , i wouldn't want to go into a relationship. But , honestly , you really should think again. If that's what you really want , i won't say anything about it. But the problem is you don't even have any feelings for xxx! You know, it would make people think that you're just playing his feelings . Not that i think like that. Don't get the wrong idea , but i don't want you to repeat the mistake i made. I thought i love him too, but it wasn't like what i thought. Anyway, that has pass, and i ... I don't know what to say. Scissors boy has the same opinion as me. So... break a leg. =.=

I like the way you sound in the morning

we're on the phone without a warning

I realized your laugh is the best sound i have ever heard.

I like the way i can't keep my focus

I watch you talk but you didn't notice

I hear the words but all i can think is we should be together.

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I wanna fall in love with you again.

I won't deny the fact that I cried. Because you really mean a lot to me, but no matter what , you've left a scar right in the middle of my heart . Sorry can't cure it , because , the damage is done .

What A Day.

Geez guys. Something went very wrong today. I'm really pissed off at everything . To start , my shoes. The whole freaking day my shoes was wet , and i was like , trying to chill. But in the end, some idiots who actually "STIMULATED" my anger, got the best of me.

To her , so what? You're not trying to hide ? Find someone ? Please , why don't you just tell me that you're gonna talk to that person ? I don't care, and i'm sorry if I was pulling you away , cuz.. well , cuz i thought maybe you would want to avoid some stuffs. Well , i guess i don't know you so well like i thought . You might as well spill it all out and get it over, done with. Because, hey.. Its not like i'll die. I could have saved myself from all the trouble from racking my brain to think of the best way or solution. But if you don't want , that's totally fine with me, i'm totally absolutely fine with it. You can go and be with him for all I care. You know? Pfft. But instead what did you do? You ran over , and i was shouting to you like someone who lost her mind to come back. You know , you could at least tell me so I won't make a fool out of myself. Like i said, its your life. You can honestly do whatever you want , and i won't stop you. Cuz you know what? Now i know that perhaps i wasn't always first . Which proved it today. During this incident. DO you know, how much pain it was? Did you know, i had to keep my jaws together to prevent myself from crying? DID you know , that i had to bear that unworthy person's glare? If i did not bear it, i would have dug out his eyes. DID YOU EVEN KNOW THIS? you don't , do you? Does the word sister even mean anything to you? No, scratch that, I should say, FRIEND. Does it? I can just say , i'm totally disappointed in your behaviour today. You still ask me to not get so worked up? Try having this, and let's see who's patience is better.

To another one, i don't have the right to say anything, i know. I totally get it, and i won't say anything sensitive. But i'll just say this, if you think that the other group is better, go on. I don't mind. I don't want you to think us as your burden. I didn't even know you had a blog, you never even told me. And you thank some people whom you barely know, whereas you've know us for at least 1 year, and you didn't even mention us. Fine , i admit, we're not as cool as them, we're those goody goody who only study and talk about books, yeah, at least its better than wasting time on things that can't help you at all. You know what? I really hope that you could at least tell me or us, about whatever you haven't told us. Or you can choose to keep a secret forever, but nothing on earth stays a secret forever.

When I needed you most when I needed a friend, you let me down now

Friendship is delicate as a glass, once broken it can be fixed but there will always be cracks

Sunday School

Okay okay, perhaps there will be something interesting for this post. Cuz i just came back from church , and during sunday school , a couple of hilarious incidents happened. Okay , today's topic was about DREAMS AND DECISIONS and HAPPINESS.

Life can be exciting. Sometimes it seems as if we are changing and growing not only from day to day but also from seconds to seconds. Our dreams for the future may change just as fast. Whether we realize it or not , we are making many decisions about our lives each day, These choices can spell the difference between success and failure in life, right? I , for one , when i was a little girl , i used to dream that i could be one of the princess in those fairy tales , i bet all girls have thought about being princess right? And your prince charming would come and take you by the hand and lead you dancing in the woods. *gazes off dreamily... and snaps back to life.* Okay! FOCUS. erm.. where were we? Oh right, princesses. Well , here 's the real world isn't it? There aren't anything like these , the categories should give us the idea right? FAIRY TALES, and fairy tales DO NOT exist. Teacher Anne told us she used to wish she could own a chocolate factory when she was a little girl too. Yeah , i did have that dream too , that is , after watching Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. haha. (;

Okay , moving on to the topic of HAPPINESS , the teacher assigned us to write out 3 things that make us happy , wanna know mine? Travelling , reading and spending time with my love ones . One of the boys in my class said , he wished he could have an interview with the Holland striker (he mentioned the name , but i didn't catch what he said ). Another guy who was kind plump said , eating makes him happy. haha , he lives to eat . That's really one of the best. haha. Now , explain your understanding of happiness. Are you thinking?? It really is hard isn't it? So when teacher asked me , i just shrugged. Because i 'm not sure what would be the best answer. The teacher moved on and asked everyone what is their understanding of happiness , one answered be happy with your life and just live life to the fullest . Now , teacher told us her definition of happiness . Its being in the right relationship with Jesus and doing what God wants us to do. Perhaps i'm not mature enough , but i don't understand this statement. Oh well , i suppose i'll understand it sooner or later.

Anyway , the whole afternoon i was having guitar class , and whoaa. the tips of my finger is numb now. Honestly, i do envy those people who could play the guitar and they're totally indulged in the music , so.. in order to reach my goal , i have to keep holding on. *play avril lavigne's KEEP HOLDING ON * LOL. haha. anyway, that's all folks. (; love youu people. CHEERS! ♥