This sucks..this totally sucks.

I think i'm going mad. I don't know why i like him. I just hope its not for long. Or i might die of heart-ache.

swee lynn,kar hoe,yue sam thanks for supporting me when i'm in trouble. A friend in need is a friend indeed. I finally witnessed that.Thanks a lot guys..serious..i will try my best to forget about him.

I'm just his sis,his just my bro. I'm learning to accept that fact. No,in fact,i think i've accepted that fact long ago. I'm sure its just feelings between sis and bro..affectionate,right?yeah..that must be it..no more than that...

So the conclusion is...i don't like him anymore. no more feelings..he likes her(another girl)..i like him(another guy)its done. we're done.

But whenever he talks to me about A,i have a sour feeling. probably tummy ache.yeah that must be it..omg..swee lynn..pls help..i'm starting to get that stupid feeling again!!

I think changing bus might help...that way i can avoid him..i can always avoid him in school..so maybe i should..i just don't know what reason to give my mom.

Oh damn..i'm really going mad...help..

I finally finished my geografi project!! YAY!!

Phew..I finally finished my geography project...okay..leave out the fact that I haven't sort it out yet..and I still have a few touch-ups to do..yeah..but..I mean..I've finish typing all those stuffs..and I..well..haiz..i still have my history project to do..my girl guide log file..and so on..I don't think I can finish all these projects and log book in one whole week..cuz i still have to catch up on my homeworks...yeah...just a few days away..the homework just starts piling up like hell man! And i'm really behind with all my classes..guess what?! I just failed my geography quiz..and i'm totally serious..i got 3/10=30/100...and luckily i didn't get detention...but..i have to retake another quiz..OMG..i'm only form 1 and i've started hating projects,log books...and quizzes..i can hardly imagine how am I going to live for the next 4 years!! Gee...i guess i'll have to work VERY VERY VERY hard..if i want to stay in the good class...

By the way.you know every teacher has been complaining about us(1A12)cuz we're noisy,we don't respect teacher,our results are worst than 1A11 and 1A10...and they are always..ALWAYS comparing us to these 2 classes..some even go way down..to 1A3..OMG..sometimes i'm thinking..maybe its because these teachers keep comparing us to other classes..and we're all like:Okay,you're comparing us to them...so we might as well BE like them..get what i mean? I'm not saying anything..really..but..sometimes..i hope teacher can give us some..what?..Space? you know...i really hope that teachers can understand us...we..okay..we might be in the best class..but we never thnk ourselves as the best in the whole form!! And we have never been like what the teachers say: SOMBONG..We might not respect teacher in the way they wanted...but..no matter how..AT LEAST we respect teachers!! I mean..its okay to go to toilet right?and AT LEAST we asked for permission! But,when i wanted to go to toilet,i asked teacher if i could go..you know what she asked me?! "Pergi ke tandas buat apa?"BLIMEY!!!!!!!WHAT BLOODY QUESTION IS THAT?!What do you think we go to toilet for?! Dance ballet? Or what? Wash the toilet?! THIS QUESTION IS R-I-D-I-C-U-L-O-U-S!!!!!!!! Boy,didn't i want to shout at her in the face! And don't forget this,she's a MALAY...OMG...you guys might know what i mean by this...==..And she's really rude..she's even ruder than us! It was relief..and goodness knows why she came in..==..so..yeah..i was discussing homework with my friends..she just come and bang my table and shout:DIAM!..OMG..she is really a bitch! I didn't take much notice of her though..i just..glared at her..and i asked the last question..and i diam diam..sheesh!now i wish i didn't take ANY notice of her!! Anyway,its late..gotta sleep now...lolz...==...byes..^^...

See my niece! She's so cute!!

I went to visit my bro a few weeks ago..and...yeah...i took a few pictures of them...check it out..^^..

SMILE!!!!!!^^...

0.o...^^...so cute!!

she's standing in front of the fan...==..but..she's really cute..^^...

she just had a haircut...cute huh??><

hi!this is Mandy...^^...

I'm so dead!

OMG..i just check my phone bill..and i only notice that my usage is RM97.73...it just increased..oh dear..i'm going to be so dead...i dunno what my dad's reaction would be...i just know 1 thing...I"M DEAD.now i don't dare to use in case it increased to 100 over ringgit..i can kiss goodbye to my friends...my kor..my jie...all of them...last time my usage is RM154...now..RM97.73...congrats...i just hope my dad is not in a bad mood when he gets my bill...please God...i beg you..this is the false bill...please..i'm so gonna be mince if he gets my bill when he is in a bad mood...my dad threaten to cut off my line...you guys know what that means don't you?...it means....I CAN'T CHAT WITH YOU GUYS ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i don't know how am i going to survive without it...my mom keep tellling my dad...this time i didn't get good results...so..must take back the phone..what?!this is so lame!!!!!!its not like i want it to happen...who wants to get bad results?not me..uh-uh...and i really can't help it if most of my friends are maxis users!!!!!!!!!no way i'm changing to maxis...really no way...now i have to figure out a way and tell my dad that my bill is RM97.73....please God..help me out or i'm seriously doomed for the rest of the year...no...scratch that...for the rest of my LIFE!!!!!oh man...now i'm sure i can't concentrate on my studies today...cuz all day i'll be thinking about how to tell my dad...and...well...about that stupid bill... dammit...=.="..

Why does it have to be so complicated?

Haiz..i really hope i can make a decision..and fast too..i'm starting to get frustrated..why does love always have to be so complicated..can't it just be as simple as ABC?i'm really tired of deciding...making decisions in all these love stuffs means..you have to hurt someone...hurting someone's feeling...is what i always hated most..i've always hated it..am hating it..and will hate it forever..i've never felt so pressured in my life before...its like...everything is coming straight to me from different directions..i want to choose 1..but another likes me..then..i have to hurt 1 of them..i really hate this...i don't know if the one i like likes me..i'm really afraid of making the wrong decisions...i made the wrong decision once...and it really sucks..i hope someone will help me..i'm really bored of this kind of life..=.="..PLS HELP!!!!!!!

AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!!!!!! I HATE THIS FEELING!!!!!!!!

Do I actually need to face all these questions?When I walk to school,somebody pops out of nowhere and ask me:"So,how is your relationship between him and you?".Gosh!Gimme a break you guys!I don't know what has been going on between us,what is going on now,and what is going to happen to us later!I can't read the future guys!I just wanna leave up to everyday!Live down to whatever!But,seems like i really can't live up to whatever when it comes to this...i feel like running away...avoid all this questions...but i know,no matter what,one day,i'll have to face this stupid question..i don't know when..but..the time'll come real soon..Anyway..i don't think we'll never be together...we're just..i mean..we just don't make a couple..=.="..I know people said that whenever a couple loves each other dearly,no matter what other people say,they still keep their faith..problem is...I DON'T KNOW WHETHER HE LIKES ME OR NOT!I'm not so sure either..do i like him or not i mean...haiz..so much for concentrating on my studies...=.="...

here are a few people i'd like to thank for giving me so much advice in this love thingy=.=":
first of all,
wai yee
swee lynn
melanie
chee ching(she's not really a love expert,so she doesn't give much,but..hey!she's a good listener!^^)
kar hoe=.="..

Is it love?

What is LOVE? That you don't care whether that person is perfect and you still love that person? Is that it? Then what about LIKE? I don't know if I LIKE or LOVE him...its really complicated..everybody told me that he has already like another girl..I know..but..why?why can't i just forget him?Just..accept the fact that he is unavaible?I accepted that long ago..but why?why can't i stop thinking bout him?I thought maybe going to different schools i will forget him.. forget that he ever hurt me so badly before..forget every single detail bout him..but everytime when we text each other,i miss him like hell..that day he told me he is going to taiwan,my heart broke into pieces..then when i watched the news at night there was this accident in taiwan..a lot of people died..i think my heart stop for 1 sec..then i tried to call him...but failed..That day he came back,i text him..luckily he replied..a lot of days later..i couldn't take it any longer..so i ask him if he still like me..until today..he still hasn't replied..i guess i know the answer deep down in my heart..but i just won't face the fact...guess it really is time to let go..just like wai yee said..loving someone who doesn't love you is not worth..i never believe that..but now i do..but i just wanna say..he gave me the best time of my life last year...though we were never together..i will always cherish the memories..gosh,i miss him so much!T.T...