friends come and go...if you're lucky..they stay..it's true..

It's a typical tuesday today...
I lost my so-called friends...
i can't believe i trusted them..
i thought they were my friends..
at least,I thought so...obviously...

and i don't know what's wrong with me either!
everytime i walk near them..
they would stop talking..
and then start a new convo..
i mean,what is it that everybody knows..and i'm an idiot standing there blinking my eyes and staring at them?
oh god!!!i'm always the odd one out!!

i just hope we'll all be friends..
no need one left out...
but i don't think that's the way they think...
i'm alone...
all alone...
in my big big world of loneliness...
sigh,sigh,sigh and sigh...

I'm thirteen now
and don't know
how my friends could be so mean
i come home crying and you hold me tight
and grab the keys..
and we drive and drive until we found ourselves far enough away..
and we talked in a window shop till i forgot
all their names..
based on taylor swift's The Best Day
it kinda suits my situation..==..don't you think?

i just wanna say..i had the best days with you guys..
bye forever...
*sigh

life is good!!

i think i really am finally to forget him..
can you believe it?
haha..not even a day..
i feel like singing at the top of my lungs..
haiz..LIFE IS GOOD!!!

anyway..i just went to check out the final fantasy songs..xD
i must..because i'm learning a new song on my organ..
okay...not my intestines..==..
its an electone actually..==..

i think the theme song is nice(final fantasy=="..)..
but problem is..
i go youtube find..
aiyo...
all what titanic theme song come out..=="...
those romantic scenes from final fantasy..
i mean like,
hello?!
i just ate and you let me see all these ''watak'' scenes..
EWW..gross..>.<..

okay larhhs..
maybe not ''watak'' but..
i think i'm underaged??
hahax..actually i've seen even yucky derhhs..
haha..==..
so..this is still at okay level..
hahax...
i don't know why i keep laughing..

i feel like doing things to cheer myself up..
i don't know why
that feeling is starting to come back
what the hell..

AAARRRGGGHHH!!!
dunno why suddenly thinking
life is not so good..
but life is good though..
but not so good..
but quite good..
AAARRRGGGHHH!!!
i don't know what am i saying..
i outta moi mind..==
weird little girl..that's what legendary calls me..==..
what a weird girl..
kk...fine...
i admit..
i am weird..
**************************************************************
its too late for you and your horse to come around(bet you don't own a horse[snort])
as far as i'm concern,youre just another picture to burn(oh yeah..you really are another picture to burn..you bet you are!!)
maybe two is better than one(ya think?!!)
you belong with me(you do?!!!eww..==...)*falls off my chair==..
romeo save me i've been feeling so alone(i have?)
our song is the way you laugh 1st date man i didn't kiss him and i should have(thank god i didn't!!!)
i'm only me when i'm with you(i don't think so!!i am so not MOI when i'm with you!!=="...)
you make me crazier,crazier(you do?oh yeah..you do frustrate me..as in a bad way..not a good way!==...)
you're not sorry(YOU BET YOU AREN'T!!)
tell me why(don't tell me,i don't wanna know!!=="..)
the way i loved you(ugh,don't even remind me!!!)
and i don't know why cuz with you i'd dance in a storm in my best dress fearless (my best dress?!!no way!!not worth a jerk like you!)
back then i swore i was gonna marry him someday but i realize some bigger dreams of mine(ugh!i never thought that way!thank god!!!)
cuz it rains in your bedroom when everything is wrong(good!!its kinda funny to see your room in the newpaper with the headlines featuring:boy's room flooded.or maybe a even more interesting headlines..muahahaha!!!)
and i had the best day with you today(you bet i didn't!!)
all based on taylor swifts songs

this is all that i've got to say..to that jerk..
but you guys are more than welcome to read!XP
have a nice laugh..(that is,if it is funny=="...)

p/s:sweelynn lao po..fast fast update lorhhs..xP...

I am really an ultimate fool!

I can't believe it..
he lied again..
xxx told me something today that really shocked me..

deleting all his messages
muttering junk after every deleted message
and muttering jerk too
it rhymes..
jerk sends junk..

i'm feeling so empty now..
i regreted listening to him..
believing all his lies..
thought he'd be different..

i won't cry..
i will stand up strong..
i've learnt another lesson..
i will never cry for a jerk...
never and forever..

i will not believe anything..ANYTHING
whatever he says..
i will treat it like its all wind brushing across my skin..
i just don't know why he wants to lie to me!

GOSH!!I AM A FOOL!!!

I was a fool
listening to you
believing everything you say
thought you had changed
little did i know
I was the fool
I was the one getting hurt
I am a fool

ohmigod..
i just chat with him!
and i was like a total dork!
i can't believe it!!

i'm suck at thinking of a topic to say...
i'm a nutter!!!

AARRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME ANYWAY?!!

i feel like dropping down a hole..
too bad there isn't any near me..T.T...

i can hardly breathe!!!

AAAAAARRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

sigh..
sigh..
sigh..
i don't know why i keep looking at my phone..
hoping and hoping he will sms me..
even though i know fat chance he will sms me.

AAARRRRGGGHHHH!!!I don't know what i'm thinking!!!!!

UGH!!!i hate him!!why does he keep pushing me?!!
everything also must go his way!
tell him what,
if he comes crawling back saying sorry to me
i'll show him how sorry he'll be

To:that jerk
So go and tell your friends that i'm obsessive and crazy
that's fine you won't mind if i say
YOU'RE AN ULTIMATE JERK!!



I hate that stupid old pick up truck you never let me drive
You're a redneck,heartbreak who's really been a lie..yeah
So watch me strick a match on all my wasted time
As far as i'm concerned you're just another picture to burn

Miss the old times..

Today..after school..it was just the three of us..it felt so familiar..we used to walk together..laughing all the way to the school gate..I really miss those times..I'm really very very very very super duper happy...

Something embarrasing happened to me..last night larhhs
and they keep teasing say i always nervous
the conversation went like this:

M:Aiya..wei er..don't always so gan jeong la see him..(>.<)
Me:No la..i'm not gan jeong..you know arh..i'm always very calm de arhhs..xP..
M&CC:yeah right!
Me:yes larhhs..very calm..

Then we were near the school gate and i saw him
I have to admit
My heart was thumping so hard against my chest that i thought my heart was going to fly out!
Then i keep trying to do a 'avoid him dance' by running front and running back..haha..

then M said:wei er..don't keep running la..
CC:yalo..after he sees you and think..aiyo..why i chat with a weird person..
M:yalo yalo..haha..
Me:okay..okay..

Then i calmed down..on the outside though..
Inside..my heart was thumping like mad..
then M say her sis come..then bye bye..n bye bye..
left me and CC
i keep wanting to walk faster..
CC still walk slow slow..(aiyoyo!>.<)
then she ask,why you want to avoid him?
then i say:mana ada..
then she say my voice is trembling..
Me:well,you see..walking uphill is kinda tiring so of course you get tired you will pant...and it is hard to talk when you're panting..
CC:Oh really?(sarcastically)
Me:yeah..okay..goodbye!
CC:Wehs!not so fast!
Me:okay..
then walk walk walk...
Me:okay!bye bye!
CC:bye..

then i cross the bridge..alone..
and i didn't know that i'm crossing with him..==..(ohmigod!)
then..i dunno why me and him keep walking the same pace..
i walk fast he also walk fast..
then dunno why the damn person in front of me suddenly walk slow..
then his side suddenly a lot of people..
aiyo!help lorhhs!
then finally..FINALLY!
i see my bus and make a dash for it..
siapa tahu..
he also walk the same way..
i thought he walk to esso there..
then i was like..
Dammit dammit dammit!
then i finally got on bus..
my heart was already dancing madly inside
i could hardly breathe..
aiyo..see him larhhs!
make people run so fast until now cannot breathe..==..

then i hiccup..
OHMIGOD!!!!!!
the whole bus looked at me(okay not the whole bus but just the few people around me)
then wait wait wait..
everybody come on board...
then vrroom!
the bus go
i still cannot breathe normally..
until go home..
i bathe finish..
then breathe normally...
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!!