Happy Birthday to me.

So yeah, its my birthday again. But everything's different this year. No surprises, no him. Well, i guess i'll have to learn to accept facts and ignore fictions in my life. Its a busy year next year, i am so gonna study hard cuz i wanna get into good college and study overseas. DON'T EVER UNDERESTIMATE ME. HAHA. I will show you my awesomeness. Just you wait. ;P

It's okay. I don't blame you. Afterall it is my fault that i'm not good enough to make you stay. I will better myself these times. And then you will see the REAL me. I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask how you are. I hope you will see something that will make you wish you had stayed. I've always had everything planned out, but i never plan on you walking out of my life. I've never wanted you to regret any decision you make, but this time, I really hope you know what you've lost. But if you dont come to realize its a lost, that's fine with me. As long as you're living how you want your life to be, since our "point of living" is different. Whatever that meant. But nothing is going to stop me from going out with all your best friends, as in, we become best friends. And no matter what, I will always think about my best friends first, under certain circumstances of course. But i want to give you a piece of advice, if you truly love a girl, you will love her everything including her friends, her flaws. I guess, you just didnt know that. I really hope, you find a girl who can accept you for who you are, and have the same "point of living".

I loved you. I always did. It's just, you never trust me; you never did.
If you come back to me now, i would still love you.
But if you decide against it, I wish you will know you lost something important.













I Hate You.
I Love You too.
But I Love You more than I Hate You. ;/

我真的非常喜欢你。我也不想骗谁，说过得很好。我对不起自己罢了。我承认，这一切都是我一手造成，让你难过，我真的不知道该怎么道歉。但是，如果分手能够解决一切问题，那么全世界都不会有夫妻。因为，问题是用来巩固一段感情。我本来想和你一起承担，解决问题。但看来，你一点都不想。好吧，祝你愉快。再见。

跟你在一起，我从来没想过放弃。

So yes, another heartbreak. I don't know what to do. Talk about the stupidest reason to break up. I always thought you would understand, and we did promise to never argue over stupid things. But now you just thought leaving would be best, i should've known it when i tested you. I don't wanna get my hopes up anymore. I just wanna be a normal person. Why isit so hard to just let go? I know these things need time, and i will get used to it. And when that time comes, i'll show you how well i've been living. I'll make you believe the impossible, and i'll show you and everyone that, silent prayers can be answered too.

One day, i'll be fine. I've lived 12 years of my life without you, sure i can live without you now. And i will. but you know,

Somehow you lost feel, i get that its my fault. And it is truly my fault. I admit. So if you lose interest in me just because i dont spend time with you, i wont agree with you. I wont even bother to talk to you. Because:

Come back come back come back to me like you would you would if this was a movie stand in the rain outside till i came out.

Come back come back come back to me like you could you could if you just say you're sorry,
I know that we could work it out somehow.
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now.